Max.
O God! thou openest to me, a path of escape out of this maze of suffering—but, a path I cannot tread!—Leave Arabella!—Leave my mother, aged and blind!—No:—Never!
(He walks about wildly)
Are there no other means? Cannot I take a brush, and pre|sent myself to clean people's shoes, as they pass? No honest shift that will supply bread to my family, can be disgraceful.
(Pauses)
Or, shall I follow the gambler, and make myself his accomplice in robbery? Would it be an unpardonable crime, to commit an act of rob|bery—but
for once in my life?—And this, to prevent all that is dear to me, from perishing for hunger?—No, Maxwell! think of the noble soul of thy wife! Do not wound her heart with worse than the pangs of death.
(Pauses again)
That gentleman was in the right: better, better far, to leave wife and child, than by my presence, to enhance their sufferings. Must
they not live without
me, because
I cannot live without
them? I will be gone: I will go to India. Fool! Will that give them bread? Oh! could I, but by any honest means, secure to them subsistence; I would set off for India, this moment. They might weep for my absence. But, if they had only bread to eat; what, though they should moisten it with their tears?
(Again a pause)
O God! thou who feedest the fowls of the air, who clothest the callow young in the nest!—pour but one ray of cheering light into my soul! Shew me only a protector for my wife!
(He gazes wildly around him)
Faces, every where,— human faces but, no men—no humanity!
(Shudders)
Ah! there! Walwyn comes.
(With a faint hollow voice)
Walwyn!
(Stops as if suddenly rooted to the ground, and pores with downcast eyes)
What was this? What darted through my brain? Oh—h—h! I shudder at the thought! Let me grasp thee, thou terrible stranger!— Thou wearest a hideous mask! Yet art, perhaps, destined