Many times I prayed, and had many petitions granted me presently, and at other times I prayed, and was denyed what I begged, but had what I de∣sired in a better way; in all Dispensations I found my God with me, either with his preventing, as∣sisting, or supporting graces, I received innume∣rable favours from him, yet could I not be perswa∣ded that they came from his love, but that rather they were to augment my score; I was still la∣bouring and inquiring how I might come to be as∣sured of Gods love, which he was pleased at length to shew me in some measure, on this manner; In the sixt of John I hear my Saviour Jesus Christ telling me,
that I cannot come to him except God our Father draw me, and if I come to him, him, he will in no wise cast me out, but will raise me up at the last day;
I am perswaded, that it was my God alone that did draw me to my Sa∣viour Jesus Christ, that will receive me, and will raise me up at the last Day. In
John 17. I hear him praying to his Father for me, whose request I am confident shall not be denyed.
Nay further, by faith I see my Saviour Jesus Christ suffering for me, nailed upon the Cross for me, wounded, buffeted, stript, and spit upon for me; dead, buryed, rose again, ascended into Hea∣ven, and sitteth on the right hand of his Father, and my God, making intercession for me; which gives me assurance of my Gods everlasting and unchangeable love, in, and through my Saviour Jesus Christ, towards me, and that not for any thing that was in me, but for his sake, he said unto me, when I was in my blood, live; and I know I do believe and am regenerated by the Holy Ghost.
1. Because I find such an alteration in my self, that whereas before I could not believe there was a