Letters of love and gallantry. And several other subjects. All written by Ladies. Vol. I.

LETTER VI.

IF I did not know to the contra∣ry by my own Experience; you wou'd make me believe, that Friendship and Love can't be con∣tain'd in one Breast. Is it possible you can be so much taken up with Am∣brisia, that you have not time e∣nough to tell me of it; and that in this solitude, I should hear of Cleander's Affairs from two or three, before I know any thing of 'em from himself: They tell me, you are every day with your New Mi∣stress, and that you are well re∣ceiv'd there. I should be pleas'd with it, if I did not fear, in stead of finding two Friends, to lose that one, whose Friendship I prefer to all other things: But you'll make me almost Jealous of her, if you don't write quickly, for this is my fourth since I've heard from

you. Tell me Cleander, you that search into the Nature of things, that know the Passions of Men; how they are form'd in the Soul, and by what means, and what de∣grees they rise; tell me, how I may give that Awe, that Fear, or that Respect which I hear often talk'd of, that makes men not dare to tell a Woman that they love her. Is it the Grave, the Sour, the Proud, or modest Looks? Or is there no such thing, but in Songs and Ro∣mances? For my part, I cou'd never meet with it; and tho perhaps there is some Pleasure in being be∣lov'd, I cannot endure to be told of it, unless by the Language of the Eyes, or so; for that we need not understand: But there's nothing so dull, or so troublesome to me, as a declar'd Lover: This Reflecti∣on was occasion'd by an Adventure happen'd to me two days ago; a Stripling of Eighteen, whose Father and Mother had been Servants in

the Family where I am, said to one in the House (who told me) that he was in Love with me, and after had the Insolence to tell me himself, that he was in Love; But you little think with whom, Madam, added he; and just as he was going to finish his Declaration, by good Fortune he was call'd away: Can any thing be more provoking? Teach me where to place my Anger on the Men, or on my self. Antonio was bashful to a Fault in other things, and yet he did not fear to say all he thought, and it may be more to me. Cloridon who treated me with the highest Respect imaginable, dis∣cover'd his Love to me, as soon as he knew it himself; and many have pretended it, that never felt any, at least for me. The last indeed had encouragement enough, not to re∣pent of what he had done, and Reason not to despair of any thing he could ask; so that after being two years contented with my Love,

he Resolv'd to put it to the Tryal, and begun to pretend to Favours, with all the Arguments he could invent, or find, to perswade me of the Innocence and lawfulness of what he ask'd: You may find what influence they had upon me by the following Lines, which he sent me in a Letter next day.

I.

NOT one kind word, not one relenting Look? The harsh, the Cruel Doom to mitigate? Your Native Sweetness, ev'n your Eyes fors••ok; They shin'd, but in the fiercest Form of Hate.

II.

Is't Honour does these Rigid Laws impose; That will no sign of gentleness allow; That tells you, 'tis a Crime to Pity Foes, And bids you all the utmost Rigour show?

III.

All Praise the Judge, unwilling to Condemn, Where Clemency with Justice long Debates: But he who Rig'rously insults, we blame, And think the Man more than his Sin he hate

IV.

Dare I my Judge Accuse of Cruelty? When at her Feet she saw her Slave implore, With hasty Joy she gave the sad Decree: I hate you, and will never see you more.

V.

Ay! 'tis too plain the False Olinda's pleas'd To see the Captives Death, her Eyes had made: As what she wish'd she the Occasion seiz'd; No Sigh a kind Reluctancy betray'd.

VI.

If you intend to try your Power, or Skill, A Nobler way pursue the great Design: The meanest Wretch on Earth knows how to kill; But to preserve from Deaths an Act Divine.

VII.

Like Heav'n, you with a Breath can Recreate Your Creature, that without you does not Live: Say that you Love, and you Revoke my Fate; And I'm immortal if you can forgive.

VIII.

My fiercest Wishes you shall then restrain, And Love that tramples o're my heart subdue: What doubt can of your mighty Pow'r remain, When even that submits and yields to you?

I believe I spoke from my Heart, when I told him I hated him; I'm sure I thought so then, when I saw him whom I believ'd to have an E∣steem and Respect for me, act as if he had neither. I said the most vi∣olent things I cou'd imagine against him, and left him without the least Reluctancy: But my Rage, or Hate, was soon Converted to a Quiet, Stupid Grief, that over∣whelm'd my Soul, and left me not the Power of easing it the common way, in tears, or Complaints. I saw that I must resolve never to see him again, whatever it made me endure: And in fine I saw all that cou'd make me unhappy, without

any hopes of a Remedy; for thô he Writ to me often to beg my Pardon, and Vow'd a thousand times, he would not be guilty of the same fault again; thô he were sure to be successful; yet I prevail'd with my self absolutely to refuse to see him, with more Resolution than I thought my self capable of; for I consider'd it was dangerous to trust him, notwithstanding his Protestations, since he had broke his Word before: And I don't know if I had not some Reason to di∣strust my self, after having gone so far, as not only to suffer him to talk to me of his Love, but to own mine to him. When he saw this would not do, he had recourse to his old way of Writing upon bu∣siness; but the Letter came first to my hands, and so I stifled it, and said nothing of it to my Mother. A Week after a Porter came to me, and said he was sent by the Coun∣tess of—who desir'd me to go

immediately to her Lodgings, for she had something of great Conse∣quence to tell me; and that he left her at a place where she had Din'd, but she was just going home. A∣way I went, and when they told me she was not at home, I thought she wou'd not fail of being there presently, and went up Stairs to stay for her: When I came into the Room, I saw Cloridon there, and wou'd have retir'd; but he civilly hinder'd me, and told me, he was waiting for his Cousin (for this La∣dy was nearly related to him) whom he expected to come in very soon; but 'twas a great Happiness I came before, and more than he cou'd have hop'd for from Fortune; for at first he pretended it was chance brought us together there: But he knew I must find it out, and so to prevent my discovering it to the Lady, he told me that coming to visit her, and not finding her at home; it came into his thoughts to

send for me in her Name; for he knew that she us'd to visit me, and often desir'd me to go abroad with her, or to bear her Company at home; so that he hop'd he might succeed without being suspected. I was in great confusion, and very angry at the trick he had put upon me; and yet I cou'd not but be a little pleas'd at it too. I lov'd to see him, and was glad of an oppor∣tunity to give him his Pardon, which I did, but made a Vow ne∣ver to consent to meet him in pri∣vate, thô he beg'd it upon his knees above an hour, and said he wou'd not rise till I had granted it: I sup∣pose he was not so good as his Word; but I left him in that po∣sture, and before I went away, charg'd him not to write to me any more. This enterview serv'd but to encrease my melancholy; I in∣dulg'd it a long time, and thought upon nothing but what sooth'd and added to it: But at length conside∣ring

the occasion of my misfortune, it represented it self to me, not on∣ly as my Folly but my Crime; and then I concluded it must be a Crime to grieve for the loss of that, which 'twas a Crime to Love; and so fix'd a resolution of overcoming my Passion, which I endea∣vour'd to do by Reason, and by diversions. Had I had you my Friend to assist me with your Coun∣sels, I had found it much less diffi∣cult; but now I had the strongest part of my self to Combat with∣out any Aid: I often gave ground, and sometime suffer'd my self to be vanquish'd by the bewitching Refle∣ctions of what unequall'd satisfa∣ctions I had found in his Company, and how many happy hours I en∣joy'd with him; but some good thought wou'd rouse my Soul to strive again, and then the Victory was mine. I find by experience 'tis but bravely, heartily, and tho∣roughly Resolving upon a thing,

and 'tis half done: There's no pas∣sion, no Temptation so strong, but Resolution can overcome: All is to be able to Resolve; there's the point, for one must lose a little of the first Ardour, before one can do that; and many of our Sex have ruin'd themselves, for want of time to think. 'Tis not a constant set∣led purpose of Virtue will do; there must be particular Resoluti∣ons for a particular Attack; 'tis easie enough to say, no Man shall prevail with me to do an ill thing; the difficulty is such a Man shall not; he that I love, he that 'tis Death for me to deny any thing to: There I got the better of my self, and at last attain'd to a calm serenity of mind, which I have en∣joy'd ever since, as much as can be expected in such a World as this; and which nothing can disturb, if you continue to have that Friendship for me, which you have profess'd, and which your silence

makes me almost doubt of: But there's hardly any thing I could not more easily believe, than that Cleander is false, or Inconstant. Write quickly, for I am impatient to know the Cause of this unkind∣ness to

Your constant Friend, Olinda.