The Effect of several Conferences between Mr. Child, and Mr. H. C.
I am come, Mr. Child, with a design to serve your Soul, if it lye in my power.
God hath for several Years past, been rending and tearing me in my Estate, cursing and blasting all I have put my hand to, and prospered me in nothing, (and, in much horror, clapping his hands to his Heart, said,) Here it is, and I shall die.
I am informed your Trouble arises from the publishing a Book, entituled, The Second Argument for a more firm Union amongst Protestants. What part of that Book troubles you most?
(Taking up the Book in his hand, began to read where he saith, the greatest Number of Dissenters do hold Prin∣ciples dangerously heretical, and most abominably abusing the most holy and blessed God, &c. but before he could end that Para∣graph, being under extreme agony of mind, and weeping bitterly, put the Book from him, and spake to this effect, viz.) I have repre∣sented those of Calvin's Principles beyond whatever they conceived, strained their Opinions beyond their Intentions, and drawn such Consequences as never were in their minds, and, striking his breast with much anguish, said, These Words lye close; I shall never get over this; I writ in prejudice against them, calling them a villanous body of People, which was unjust.
said, Are you not heartily sorrowful for writing this?
Oh that I could repent; I cannot repent.
If it were now to do, would you do it again? the best part of repentance is to turn from evil.
I know there is in Repentance three things; Confession, Contrition, and Restitution.
We are not capable of making God restitution, he par∣dons and justifies for his own Name's sake, and Christ's sake; but restitution is to be made to our Neighbour; and if you are sen∣sible God hath been dishonoured, and his People wronged in that Book, your next work is to make restitution in like manner, by a 〈…〉〈…〉