I saw the battel, and I heard a tumult, and a great noise, but I know not what it was, a Sam. 18. 29. Thus many men do with their sins as he did with his intelligence, they are troubled for sin, but they know nothing but in the general; they know not what the sin is; just like Nebuchadnezzar, he called his Magicians and Inchanters together, saith he, Tell me the Interpretation of my dream, for I have dreamed, and I know not what it is. Some men say, they have sinned; but they do not know what sin they have committed, what particular sin they have done.
The second Rule is this, Look upon small sins cloathed with great aggravations; Beloved, this is the reason why men are not troubled, they look on their small sins as small, but do not look on them as cloathed with many hainous circumstances: Suppose thy sin be a small sin, invisible as to the world, yet if thou wouldst cloath this sin with aggra∣vated circumstances; it may be a sin against conscience; a sin against much mercy; it may be it is a sin committed after many purposes and vows. This course did Justin take in the second book of his Confessions, chap. 4. about his robbing the Orchard: I did it, saith he, compelled neither by hunger nor poverty, but even through a cloyed∣ness of well doing, and a pamperedness of iniquity; for I steal that of which I had enough of mine own, and much better, &c. and so he goeth to aggravate his sin. Beloved, when you find your souls not troubled for sin, cloath it with many hainous circumstances; and this we read of one that he would aggravate his sin, saith he, It is true, the Divels have sinned, but they never sinned against a Saviour as I have done; Adam sinned, but he never sinned against a Christ as I have done: Do thou thus aggravate a small sin, and this will bring humiliation.
A third Rule, live in the meditation of pardoning mercy; it is true, wicked men make pardoning grace a means of presumption; but pardoning grace rightly applied, is the most genuine way for the breaking and troubling of the soul; Beloved, lay thy self in the arms of Christ, on the bed of his love, and that's the way to break thy flinty and stony heart.