and its glory; yet after that pang is over, thy heart is habitually earthly, and thy conversation is not there.
For all thou canst mourn at the relations of Christs Sufferings, thou art not so affected with sin, that was the meritorious cause of the sufferings of Christ; as to crucifie one corruption, or deny the next temptation, or part with any way of sin that is gainful, or pleasurable to thee for his sake.
Why now, Reader, if it be so with thee, what art thou the bet∣ter f••r the fluency of thy affections? Dost think in earnest, that Christ hath the better thoughts of thee; because thou canst shed tears for him; when notwithstanding thou every day piercest and woundest him? O be not deceived. Nay for ought I know, thou maist find upon a narrow search; that thou puttest thy tears in the room of Christs blood, and givest the confidence, and dependance of thy soul to them; and if so, they shall never do thee any good.
Oh therefore search thy heart, Reader, be not too confident; take not up too easily, upon such poor weak grounds as these, a soul undoing confidence. Always remember, the Wheat and Tares r••semble each other in their first springing up. That an Egg is not liker to an Egg, than Hypocrisie, in some shapes and forms into which it can cast it self, is like a genuine work of grace. O re∣member that among the Ten Virgins, that is, the reformed pro∣fessors of Religion; that have cast off and separated themselves from the worship and defilements of Anti-christ: five of them were foolish.
There be first, that shall be last; and last, that shall be first, Matth. 19.30. Great is the deceitfulness of our hearts, Ier. 17.9. And many are the subtilties and devices of Satan, 2 Cor. 11.3. Many also are the astonishing examples of self deceiving souls, recorded in the Word.
Remember what you lately read of Iudas. Great also will be the exactness of the Last Judgement. And how confident soever you be, that you shall speed well in that day; yet still remember, that Trial is not yet past. Your final Sentence is not yet come from the mouth of your Judge. This I speak, not to affright and trouble, but to excite and warn you. The loss of a soul is no small loss, and upon such grounds as these, they are every day cast away.
This may suffice to be spoken to the first observation, built upon this supposition; that it was but a pang of meer natural affection in