remember, fill me with horrour; but there
are also multitudes of others, which I either
observed not at the time, or have since care∣lesly
forgot, which are all present to thee.
Thou settest my misdeeds before thee, and my
secret sins in the light of thy countenance,
and to what a mountainous heap must the mi∣nutely
provocations of so many years arise?
How shall one so ungodly stand in thy Judg∣ment,
or such a sinner in the Congregation of
the Righteous? And to add yet more to my
terrour, my very repentance I fear will not
abide the tryal, my frequent relapses hereto∣fore
have sufficiently witnessed the unsincerity
of my past resolutions. And then, O Lord,
what can secure me that my present dislikes of
my sins are not rather the effects of my ama∣zing
danger, then of any reall change; and,
O Lord, I know thou art not mo••ked, nor
wilt accept of any thing that is not perfectly
sincere. O Lord, when I consider this, fear∣fulness
and trembling comes upon me, and an
horrible dread overwhelmeth me, my flesh
trembleth for fear of thee, and my heart is
wounded within me. But, O Lord, one
deep calleth upon another, the depth of my
misery upon the depth of thy mercy. Lord,
save now, or I perish eternally. O thou who
willest not that any should perish, but that
all should come to Repentance, bring me, I
beseech thee, though thus late, to a sincere
Repentance, such as thou wilt accept, who
tryest the heart. Create in me, O God, a