The soveraignty & goodness of God, together, with the faithfulness of his promises displayed; being a narrative of the captivity and restauration of Mrs. Mary Rowlandson. Commended by her, to all that desires to know the Lords doing to, and dealings with her. Especially to her dear children and relations, / written by her own hand for her private use, and now made publick at the earnest desire of some friends, and for the benefit of the afflicted.

The thirteenth Remove.

Instead of going toward the Bay, which was that I desired, I must go with them five or six miles down the River into a mighty Thicket of Brush: where we abode almost a fortnight. Here one asked me to make a shirt for her Papoos, for which she gave me a mess of Broth, which was thickened with meal made of the Bark of a Tree, and to make it the bet∣ter, she had put into it about a handfull of Pease, and a sew roasted Ground-nuts, J had not seen my son a pritty while, and here was an Indian of whom J made inquiry after him, and asked him when he saw him: he answered me, that such a time his ma∣ster roasted him, and that himself did eat a piece of him, as big as his two fingers, and that he was very good meat: But the Lord upheld my Spirit, under this discouragement; and I considered their horrible addictedness to lying, and that there is not one of them that makes the least conscience of speaking of truth. In this place, on a cold night, as I lay by the fire, J removed a stick that kept the heat from me, a Squaw moved it down again, at which I lookt up, and she threw a handfull of ashes in mine eyes; J thought J should have been quite blinded, and have never seen more: but lying down, the water run out of my eyes, and carried the dirt with it, that by the morning, I recovered my sight again. Yet upon this, and the like occasions, I hope it is not too much to say with Job, Have pitty upon me, have pitty upon me, O ye my Friends, for the Hand

of the Lord has touched me. And here I cannot but remember how many times sitting in their Wig∣wams, and musing on things past, I should sudden∣ly leap up and run out, as if I had been at home, forgetting where I was, and what my condition was: But when I was without, and saw nothing but Wilderness, and Woods, and a company of bar∣barous heathens: my mind quickly returned to me, which made me think of that, spoken concerning Sampson, who said, I will go out and shake myself as at other times, but he wist not that the Lord was de∣parted from him. About this time I began to think that all my hopes of Restoration would come to no∣thing. I thought of the English Army, and hoped for their coming, and being taken by them, but that failed. I hoped to be carried to Albany, at the Indians had discoursed before, but that failed also. I thought of being sold to my Husband, as my master spake, but in stead of that, my master himself was gone, and j left behind, so that my Spi∣rit was now quite réady to sink. J asked them to let me go out and pick up some sticks, that j might get alone, And poure out my heart unto the Lord. Then also j took my Bible to read, but j found no comfort here neither: which many times j was went to find: So easie a thing it is with God to dry up the Streames of Scripture-comfort from us. Yet j can say, that in all my sorrows and afflictions, God did not leave me to have my impatience work to∣wards himself, as if his wayes were unrighteous.

But I knew that he laid upon me less then j deserved Afterward, before this dolefull time ended with me, I was turning the leaves of my Bible, and the Lord brought to me some Scriptures, which did a little revive me, as that Isai. 55.8 For my thoughts are not your thougts, neither are your wayes my ways saith the Lord. And also that, Psal. 37.5. Commit thy way unto the Lord, trust also in him, and he shal bring it to pass. About this time they came yelping from Hadly, where they had killed three English men, and brought one Captive with them, viz. Thomas Read. They all gathered about the poor Man, asking him many Questions. I desir∣ed-also to go and see him; and when I came, he was crying bitterly: supposing they would quickly kill him. Whereupon j asked one of them, whe∣ther they intended to kill him; he answered me, they would not: He being a little cheared with that, I asked him about the wel-fare of my Hus∣thand, he told me he saw him such a time in the Bay, and he was well, but very melancholly. By which I certainly understood (though I suspected it before) that whatsoever the Indians told me respecting him was vanity and lies. Some of them told me, he was dead, and they had killed him: some said he was Married again, and that the Governour wish∣ed him to Marry; and told him he should have his choice, and that all perswaded I was dead. So like were these barbarous creatures to him who was a lyar from the beginning.

As I was sitting once in the Wigwam here, Phillps Maid came in with the Child in her arms, and ask∣ed me to give het a piece of my Apron, to make a flap for it, I told her I would not: then my Mist: riss bad me give it, but still I said no: the maid told me if I would not give her a piece, she would tear a piece off it: I told her I would tear her Coat then with that my Mistriss rises up, and takes up a stick big enough to have killed me, and struck at me with it, but J stept out, and she struck the stick into the Mat of the Wigwam. But while she was pull∣ing of it out, j ran to the Maid and gave her all my Apron, and so that storm went over.

Hearing that my Son was come to this place, I went to see him, and told him his Father was well, but very melancholly: he told me he was as much grieved for his Father as for himself; I wondred at his speech, for I thought I had enough upon my spirit in reference to my self, to make me mindless of my Husband and every one else: they being safe among their Friends. He told me also, that a while before, his Master (together with other Indians) where going to the French for Powder; but by the way the Mohawks met with them, and killed four of their Company which made the rest turn back again, for which I desire that myself and he may bless the Lord; for it might have been worse with him, had he been sold to the French, than it pro∣ved to be in his remaining with the Indians

I went to see an English Youth in this place, one

John Gilberd of Spring field J found him lying without dores, upon to ground; j asked him how he did? he told me he was very sick of a flux, with eating so much blood: They had turned him out of the Wigwam, and with him an indian Papoos, almost dead, (whose Parents had been killed) in a bitter cold day, without fire or clothes: the young man himself had nothing on, but his shirt & wast∣coat. This sight was enough to melt a heart of flint. There they lay quivering in the Cold, the youth round like a dog; the Papoos stretcht out, with his eyes and nose and mouth full of dirt, and yet alive, and groaning. j advised John to go and get to some fire: he told me he could not stand, but •• perswaded him still, left he shouldly there and die: and with much adoe j got him to a fire, and went my self home. As soon as j was got home, his Masters Daughter came after me, to know what j had done with the English man, j told her j had got him to a fire in such a place. Now had j need to pray Pauls Prayer, 2 Thess. 3.2. That we may be delivered from unreasonable and wicked men. For her satisfaction j went along with her, and brought her to him; but before j got home again, it was noised about, that j was running away and getting the English youth: along with me: that as soon as I came in, they began to rant and domineer: asking me where j had been, and what j had been doing? and saying they would knock him on the head: I told them, j had been seeing

the English Youth, and that I would not run away, they told me I lyed, and taking up a Hatchet, they came to me, and said they would knock me down if I stirred out again; and so confined me to the Wigwam. Now may J say with David, 2 Sam. 24.14. I am in a great strait. If I keep in, I must dy with hunger, and if I go out, I must be knockt in head. This distressed condition held that day, and half the next; And then the Lord remembred me, whose mercyes are great. Then came an Indian to me with a pair of stockings that were too big for him, and he would have me ravel them out, and knit them fit for him. I shewed my self willing, and bid him ask my mistriss if I might go along with him a little way; she said yes, J might, but J was not a little refresht with that news, that J had my liberty again. Then J went along with him, and he gave me some roasted Ground-nuts, which did again revive my feeble stomach.

Being got out of her sight: J had time and liber∣ty again to look into my Bible: Which was my Guid by day, and my Pillow by night. Now that comfortable Scripture presonted it self to me, Isa. 54.7. For a smal moment have I forsaken thee▪ but with great mercies will I gather thee. Thus the Lord car∣ried me along from one time to another, and made good to me this precious promise, and many o∣thers. Then my Son came to see me, and J asked his master to let him stay a while with me, that J

might comb his head, and look over him, for he was almost over come with lice. He told me, when I had done, that he was very hungry, but I had nothing to relieve him; but bid him go into the Wigwams as he went along, and see if he could get any thing among them. Which he did, and it seemes tarried a little too long; for his Master was angry with him, and beat him, and then sold him. Then he came running to tell me he had a new Mas∣ter. and that he had given him some Groundouts already. Then I went along with him to his new Master who told me he loved him: and he should not want. So his Master carried him away, & j never saw him afterward. till j saw him at Pas∣cataqua in Portsmouth.

That night they bade me go out of the Wigwam again: my Mistrisses Papoos was sick, and it died that night, and there was one benefit in it, that there was more room. J went to a Wigwam, and they bade me come in, and gave me a skin to ly upon, and a mess of Venson and Ground-nuts, which was a choice Dish among them. On the morrow they burried the Papoos, and afterward, both morning and evening, there came a company to mourn and howle with her: though j confess, j could not much condole with them. Many sorrowfull dayes j had in this place: often getting alone; like a Crane, or a Swallow so did I chatter: I did mourn as a Dove, mine eyes fail with looking upward Oh, Lord j am oppressed, undertake for me, Isa. 38 14

I could tell the Lord as Hezeakiah, ver. 3. Remem∣ber now O Lord, I beseech thee, kow I have walked before thee in truth. Now had I time to examine al my wayes: my Conscience did not accuse me of un-righteousness toward one or other: yet I saw how in m y walk with God, I had been a careless creature. As David said, Against thee, thee only have I sinned: & I might say with the poor Publi∣can, God be mereiful unto me a sinner. On the Sab∣bath-dayes, I could look upon the Sun and think how People were going to the house of God, to have their Souls refresht; & then home, and their bodies also: but I was destitute of both; & might say as the poor Prodigal, he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the Swine did eat, and no man gave unto him, Luke 15.16 For I must say with him, Father I have sinned against Heaven, and in thy sight, ver 21. I remembred how on the night before & after the Sabbath, when my Fami∣ly was about me, and Relations and Neighbours with us, we could pray and sing, and then refresh our bodies with the good creatures of God; and then have a comfortable Bed to ly down on: but in stead of all this, I had only a little Swill for the body, and then like a Swine, must ly down on the ground. I cannot express to man the sorrow that lay upon my Spirit, the Lord knows it. Yet that comfortable Scripture would often come to my mind, For a small moment have I forsaken thee, but with great mercies will I gather thee.