and inward Torment, without any other disposition on thy side, than a consent to the in∣ternal and external Cross.
30. Thou wilt find within thy self a passive dryness, darkness, anguish, contradictions, con∣tinual resistance, inward desertions, horrible de∣solations, continual and strong suggestions, and vehement temptations of the Enemy; finally, thou wilt see thy self so afflicted, that thou wilt not be able to lift up thy Heart, being full of sorrow and heaviness, nor do the least act of Faith, Hope or Charity.
31. Here thou wilt see thy self forlorn and subject to Passions of impatience, anger, rage, swearing, and disordered appetites, seeming to thy self the most miserable Creature, the great∣est Sinner in the World, the most abhorred of God, deprived and stript of all Vertue, with a pain like that of Hell, seeing thy self afflicted and desolate, to think that thou hast altogether lost God; this will be thy cruel cutting and most bitter torment.
32. But though thou shalt see thy self so op∣pressed, seeming to thy self to be proud, impa∣tient and wrothful; yet these temptations shall lose their force and power upon thee, they shall have no place in thy Soul, by a secret Vertue, the soveragin Gift of inward Strength, which rules in the in-most part of it, conquering the most affrightening punishment and pain, and the strongest temptation.
33. Keep constant, O blessed Soul, keep con∣stant; for it will not be as thou imaginest, nor