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My dearest Lord,
ALL the joy I have, hath such a flatnesse set upon it by your ab∣sence from hence, as I protest to God, I cannot rellish it as I ought; for though beautie and love I find in all perfection and ful∣nesse, yet I vex, and languish to find impediments in our designs and services for you: first in the businesse, for I find our mediation must have no place with this King concerning a Peace. We must only use our power with those of the Religion, to humble them to reasonable Conditions, and that done, they would as far as I can guesse have us gone, not being willing that we should be so much as in the Kingdom, when the Peace is made, for fear the Protestants may imagine, we have had a hand in it. For our Confederation, made by you at the Hague, they speak so of it, as they will do something in it, but not so really or friendly as we could wish. But for these things, you allow me, (I trust) to refer you to the general Dispatch: I come now to other particulars; I have been a careful Spie how to observe intentions, and affections towards you. I find many things to be feared, and none to be assured of a safe and real welcome. For the * 1.1 continues in his suspects, making (as they say) very often discourses of it, and is willing to hear Villanes say, That * 1.2 hath infinite affections, you imagine which way. They say there is whispered amongst the foolish young Bravado's of the Court, That he is not a good French∣man that suffers * 1.3 to return out of France, considering the re∣ports that are raised, many such bruits flie up and down. I have since my coming given Queen Mother by way of discourse occasion to say somewhat concerning your coming, as the other night when she complained to me, That things were carried harshly in England to∣wards France; I then said, That the greatest unkindnesse and harsh∣nesse came from hence, even to forbid your coming hither, a thing so strange, and so unjust, as our Master had cause, and was infinitely sensible of it. She fell into discourse of you, desiring you would re∣spect, and love her daughter; and likewise that she had, and would ever command her to respect you above all men, and follow all your Councels (the matter of her Religion excepted) with many professi∣ons of value and respect unto your Person; but would never either excuse what I complained of, or invite you to come upon that occa∣sion,