walks when his estate is in question? but much more when his life is in question: But what if his life and estate too be in question? That man that knows God truly, would ra∣ther endure the loss of ten thousand lives and estates, then the loss of Gods favor.
2. Another thing that makes it exceed∣ing heavy, is the loss of the sweetness of former experience. David in Psal. 42. complains of this, When I remember these things, I pour out my Soul in me; for I had gone with the multi∣tude, I went with them to the house of God, with the voyce of joy and praise, with the multitude that kept holy-day. And Job in Chap. 29.2. O that it were with me as in the days of old, and in months past, as in the days when God pre∣served me! when his Candle shined upon mine head, and when by his light I walk'd in dark∣ness: As I was in my youth, when the secret of God was upon my tabernacle, and when the Al∣mighty was yet with me. Thus that man that loseth the sweetness of his former experi∣ence, remembers the days of old, and that afflicts him.
Again, God will have it so, that where this thing is not yet driven home, and the Soul hath not duly sought, and so not found satisfaction concerning his Love, it shall be bitterness to him: I say, God will have it so, the Soul shall not enjoy it self. He doth