willing to dye, not questioning my estate; but if I dyed I should be happy. About four a Clock in the Morning I had ease, was well pre∣sently after, fell to work all day, at Night voided a Stone, slept all Night very well, so continue to this day, August 10. Immortal Praise be to God that healeth me; but I render not to God according to his benefits.
Decemb. 2. 4. 8. 1664. We sought God, received Sacrament, returned Praise, I was dull before; was graciously enlarged in Prayer, in Administration, had Comfort in Receiving, I was dull again before Thanksgiving, Read a while in Baxter and Harris, and much enlarg∣ed in Duty, had sweet Peace at Sacrament, and after Praise, the Lord sealed to me Jesus Christ, Covenant of Grace, and Pardon of Sin. O bless the Lord, O my Soul.
March 1. 1664. We spent some time in Humiliation at our House by Night, was in some good measure enabled; in the Morning in a good frame, poured out my Heart in secret, had much Comfort and Peace, bless the Lord, O my Soul, and so have had ever since.: Also at Sacrament, April 2. 1665. What shall I render? So January 16. 1665. At Sacrament much enlarged in Administration and Comfort. Praise to God.
June 6. 1666. Early at five I awaked, had sweet Meditations of Gods Love and great Comfort, after some clouds and scruples, God enlarged my Heart, and put gladness, more then when Corn and Wine encreased. Lord grant I may abide in his Love.
April 2. 1667. An Ague siezed me after four fits, sent for Mr. Cranwell, he gave me a bitter Draught, which sweat me an hour be∣fore the Fit: I had no more Fits, nor Relapse, I bless God. In the beginning dull and dark, but after a Night or two sweet Comfort, and so continueth to this day, blessed be God;—May 2. 1667. I returned thanks among Christians on this Text, Psal. 103. 3. Who healeth all thy diseases.
July 5. 1668. A Sacrament at our House, I was much enlarged in Administration, in Receiving, in Meditation, Examination a day or two before, had sweet peace and full assurance. Praise be to God.
March 3. 1668. I awoke at four in the Morning, had sweet Me∣ditations and Communion with God, Peace and full assurance. Blessed be God.
Feb. 11. 69. I awoke at six in the Morning, had Peace, full Assu∣rance, Joy in the Holy Ghost, that God was mine, all his Attributes, Christ, his Blood—Holy Ghost, Word, Promises, Providences, Comfort in all, in Death it self, and Christs coming to Judgment. What shall I render to the Lord.