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To see Sin to be exceeding sinful, is an excellent Introduction to Christi∣anity, and so necessary, that the Internal part thereof is not rightly found∣ed without it. Hence, Rom. 7. 13. this we learn, That God's power∣ful manifestation of Himself to the Consciences of Men, when he reveals the dreadful Nature and Effects thereof, is, that Sin might appear work∣ing Death; that so by his Command, Sin might appear exceeding sinful, testifying that in the filthiness thereof there is lewdness, Ezek. 24. 13. yea, many aggravations, but above all that, it is committed against that God from whom we receive Life, and Breath, and all good things. The thoughts of this broke the Heart of David, more than all the aggravati∣ons of his sin, in the case of Uriah (which yet were very dreadful) Psal. 51. 4. Against Thee, Thee only have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight. Hence he crieth out, Psal. 38. 5. My Wounds stink and are corrupt, because of my foolishness; there is no soundness in my flesh, because of my sin, — for my Loyns are filled with a loathsome Disease, and there is no soundness in my Flesh. All which proceeded from the Arrows of the Al∣mighty (as he speaks ver. 4.) which are those powerful Convictions that the Law worketh, when by it Sin is revived, or made to shew its strength, Rom. 7. And herein is that saying verified, The Law worketh Wrath; and causeth the Sinner to cry out, O wretched Man that I am, who shall deliver me from the body of this Death, Rom. 7. 24. This sense of Sin is expressed by the pricking of the Heart, Acts 2. 38. which proceeds from that word, which is sharper than any two-edged Sword, because it is a Revealer of the thoughts and intents of the Heart, Heb. 4. 12. The very secret evils committed long ago and forgotten, are now set before the Sinner; as Job speaks, Job 13. 26. Thou makest me possess the sins of my youth: Yea, as witnesseth another, Psal. 90. 8. Mens secret sins are set in the light of his Countenance. Upon this followeth a Godly sor∣row, Jer. 31. 19. After I was instructed, I repented (saith Ephraim) I smote upon my Thigh, I was ashamed; yea, even confounded, &c. Of this Matter speaketh David most feelingly, Psal. 77. 2, 3, 4. In the day of my trouble, I sought the Lord; my Sore ran in the night, and ceased not, my Soul refused to be comforted. I remembred God, and was troubled, I com∣plained and my Spirit was overwhelmed; thou holdest mine Eyes waking, I am so troubled I cannot speak. With which agrees the experience of the most inward Christian, in the time of his Conversion, who is rather struck with astonishment in the consideration of his Miserable Estate, than filled with Words: Whose way is now to mourn in secret, to search with all diligence into his ways and doings in Times past, and in the bitter∣ness of his Soul to pour out his Complaints before the God of Heaven; watching as one that watcheth for the Morning Light, till the Lord have Mercy upon him, without which he apprehends he is for ever lost, Psal. 130. 5, 6.