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Letter 16.
Sir,
AT present, I have no free∣dome to answer the Letter, but am glad to hear from you: the main ground of my shattering, lyes here: I am disappointed of that which I had as certain an e∣vidence of in my spirit, as any thing that ever passed through me at any time, which sits so neere me, as I think, it will hasten my death; it was the onely thing in the world my heart was set on; and I used to say, there was no∣thing betwixt God and me, but it; in that, I am happy, and at a great deal of ease, that I have lost every thing that my heart was inor∣dinate on, but the disappointment of that which came with so much certainty into my soule, is the onely thing that so much unset∣tles me. I have no thoughts of going in a pri∣vate or more plausible way to heaven; nei∣ther was I over much under that temptation.