to God because of the Word of God. The next Lecture day
you taught that word of God, If any man lack Wisdom, let
him ask it of God, who giveth freely to them that ask him, and up∣braideth
no man, James, 1. 5. Then again a little my heart was
turned after God, the Word also said, Repent, mourn, and be∣leeve
in Jesus Christ: this also helped me on. Then you
taught, That he that beleeveth not Christ, and repenteth not of
sin, they are foolish and wicked; and because they beleeve not, they
shall perish: then I thought my self a fool, because I beleeved
not Christ, but sinned every day, and after I heard the Word,
I greatly broke the Word. But afterward I heard this pro∣mise
of God, Who ever repenteth and beleeveth in Christ, God
will forgive him all his sins, he shall not perish; then I thought,
that as yet, I do not repent, and beleeve in Christ: then I
prayed to God, because of this his Promise; and then I pray∣ed
to God, for God and for Christ his sake: after that again
I did a little break the Word of Christ. And then I heard
some other words of God, which shewed me my sins, and my
breakings of Gods word; and sometimes I thought God and
Christ would forgive me, because of the promise to them
that beleeve in Christ, and repent of sin, I thought I did that
which God spake in the Promise. Then being called to confess,
to prepare to make a Church at Natick, I loved Cohannet;
but after hearing this instruction, That we should not only be
Hearers, but Doers of the Word, then my heart did fear. And
afterward hearing that in Matthew, Christ saw two brethren
mending their Nets, he said, Follow me and I will make you
Fishers of men, presently they followed Christ; and when I
heard this, I feared, because I was not willing to follow Christ
to Natick; they followed Christ at his Word, but I did not,
for now Christ saith to us, follow Me: then I was much trou∣bled,
and considered of this Word of God. Afterward I
heard another word, the blind men cryed after Christ and
said, Have mercy on us thou Son of David, but after they came
to Christ, he called them, and asked them, What shall I do for
you? they said, Lord open our eyes; then Christ had pity on
them, and opened their eyes, and they followed Christ;
when I heard this, my heart was troubled, then I prayed to