When the Business of the HAT fell out; I being acquainted with several of them, and looking upon them as tender to the Lord, and that they did scruple it only in Conscience to him, was perswaded in my heart they were to be born with, and thought the positive Testimony against it in others too severe, and that a thing of that Nature was not to be con∣tended about, but every one left to their Liberty; yea, and somewhat farther did I go in the Sense of my Heart, as if possibly the Lord might require such a thing of them. In this Frame of Spirit did I give forth those Queries, not at all intending (the Lord knows) to strength••n that Practice thereby, but that no tender thing might be hurt, but the Unity of Life kept unviolabe, notwithstan∣ding such an Outward Difference: But at that time I did not discern, that the thing came from the Enemy; nor was I sensible, that the Ministers of the Truth, and such as stood in God's Light and Authority, and saw the thing coming from the Enemy, with the Evil, Hurt, and Dangerous Con∣sequences of it to many, yea, and the Grieving the Church of God, I say, I did not then see and seriously consider, that they were Watchmen, appointed by God, and had Discerning given them for the Good of the Body, and that by those Queries I did weaken the Testimony of God's Spirit through them, as to others, and give Strength thereby to that Spirit, which had prepared and was draw∣ing this Snare over many. So soon as ever the Lord shewed me this in the inwards of my Spirit, I smote upon my Thigh, and said, What have I done? and was willing to take Shame upon my self, and to give Glory to the Lord. How hard it went with me inwardly, none knows: And he that knows how easie it is to let in a Snare and Temptation, and to have the inward Eye blinded thereby, will not wonder, nor think too hardly of me; but his Bowels will rather rowl in the Sense of the Misery I under∣went. God knows, I did not mistake willingly: Nay, truly, The Power was upon me when I wrote those Queries, but I did not understand the Signification thereof, which would rather have led me then (as it hath since) against that Spirit, which brought up that new, Ʋnprofitable and Ʋnseemly Practice of keeping on the Hat in time of Publick Prayer, in the Assemblies of God's People.
Now, the making use of this, against the Infallible Teach∣ings