Company, and live alone, till it should please God to shew
her what she ought to do, and whither to go.
XII. The more she entered into her self, the more she
was enclin'd to abandon all, and to retire somewhere,
without knowing whether her Heart was disengag'd from
temporal Goods, from worldly Pleasures, from all Crea∣tures.
Yet she did not find her self altogether free nor
entirely united unto God, for she was apt sometimes to
turn again to what she had left. She ask'd always
earnestly,
When shall I be perfectly thine,
O, my God?
And she thought he still answered her,
When thou shalt
no longer possess any thing, and shalt die to thy self. And
where shall I do that,
Lord? He answered her
In the
Desart. This made so strong an Impression on her Soul,
that she aspired after this; but being a Maid, of Eighteen
Years only, she was afraid of unlucky chances, and was
never us'd to travel, and knew no way. She laid aside
all these Doubts, and said,
Lord, thou wilt guide me
how and where it shall please thee. It is for thee that
I do it. I will lay aside my Habit of a Maid, and will
take that of a Hermit,
that I may pass unknown.
XIII. Having then secretly made ready this Habit, while
her Parents thought to have married her, her Father ha∣ving
promis'd her to a rich French Merchant, she preven∣ted
the time, and on Easter Evening, having cut her Hair,
put on the Habit, and slept a little, she went out of her
Chamber about Four in the Morning, taking nothing but
One Penny to buy Bread for that Day; and it being said
to her in the going out, Where is thy Faith? in a Penny.
She threw it a way, begging pardon of God for her Fault,
and saying,
No, Lord, my Faith is not in a Penny, but
in thee alone.
Thus she went away wholly delivered from
the heavy Burthen of the Cares and good Things of this
World, and found her Soul so satisfied, that she no longer
wish'd for any thing upon Earth, resting entirely upon
God, with this only fear, least she should be discovered
and be oblig'd to return home; for she felt already more
Content in this Poverty, than she had done for all her
Life, in all the Delights of the World.
XIV. She knew no way, nor whither to go. She went out
at the Gate that leads to Tournay, and came thither about
Ten a Clock; then past into the Province of Hainault,
and coming through a Village called Bassec, where were