REFLECTIONS.
TO what purpose then do I glory in my natural accom∣plishments? [ 1] Though I have a better nature than some others have,* 1.1 yet it is a cursed nature still. These sweet qua∣lities and excellent gifts, do only hide, but not kill the cor∣ruption of nature. I am but a rotten post gilded over, and all my duties but hedge fruit, which God makes no account of. O cutting thought! that the unlearned shall rise and take heaven, when I with all my excellent gifts shall de∣scend into hell. Heaven was not made for Scholars, as such, but for believers; as one said, when they comforted him up∣on his death-bed, that he was a knowing man, a Doctor of Di∣vinity: O, said he, I shall not appear before God as a Doctor, but as a man; I shall stand upon a level with the most illi∣terate, in the day of judgment; what doth it avail me that I have a nimble with, whilst I have none to do my self good? Will my Iudge be charm'd with a rhetorical tongue? Things will not be carried in that world, as they are in this. If I could with Berengarius discourse de omni scibile, of every thing that is knowable; or with Solomon unravel nature, from the Cedar to the Hysop, what would this advantage me, as long as I am ignorant of Christ, and the mystery of Regeneration? My head hath often aked with study, but when did my heart ake for sin? Methinks, O my soul, thou trimmest up thy self in these natural ornaments to appear before God, much as that delicate Agag did, when he was to come before Sa∣muel, and fondly conceitest that these things will procure favour, or (at least) pity from him? but yet, think not for all that, the bitterness of death is past; say not within thy self, Will God cast such a one as a I into hell? Shall a man of such