in; saying, Libuit flere in conspectu tuo de illa, & pro illa; de me, & pro me: & dimisi lachrymas, quas continebam, ut effluerent quantum vellent, &c. I took pleasure to weep in thy sight concerning her, and for her; and concerning my self, and for my self: and to those Tears, which I had formerly repressed, I gave the liberty to run their full Carriere, &c.
It seems, with some Pretense conclusible from the foregoing words, that he was troubled about the Condition his Mother might be in; but there are Two things oblige us to believe the contrary.
The First is, That, if he had been instructed in the Belief of Purga∣tory, taught by the Church of Rome, he could not, without a kinde of injury to Piety, and Charity, have delayed, till he had slept, the contri∣bution of his Lamentations, and Tears, for the ease, and relief of a Person so dear; and spent the whole Day in Discourses, and Divertisements, which he thought might have disburthened him of his Grief, but proved ineffectual.
The Second, That, considering with himself, that his action might be thought ridiculous, and unreasonable, he accuses it, upon that very ac∣compt, that he thinks himself obliged to excuse it; saying, Legat, qui volet, &c. Let him read it, who will, and interpret it, as pleaseth him; and, if he think it a sin in me, to have bewailed my Mother for a small part of an hour (that Mother, I say, who was dead to my eyes, and had wept for me so many years, that before thine eyes I might live) let him not deride me, but ra∣ther (if he be full of Charity) let him weep for my Sins to Thee, who art the Father of all the Brethren of thy Christ our Lord, &c. If the Opinion of Pur∣gatory had been, at that Time, crept into the Church; who could, with any Justice, either have accused him of having done amiss in deploring, with unfeigned sorrow, and tears, the hard Condition of his Mother, confined (whether for a short, or a long time, it matters not) in a place of Torments? or excuse him, that he had not,
First, Bethought him, assoon as ever the Breath was out of her Body, to assist her with his Suffrages, and quitted all other kinde of Discourse.
Secondly, That (when it came into his minde to discharge that sad Du∣ty) he had bestowed but a small part of an hour in the Exercise of an Of∣fice, then which there could not be any of greater Concernment to her, to whom he ought his Life, and (under God) his Conversion? Would the Church of Rome, which approves of the Reitoration of the Service of the Dead for hundreds of years for the same Person, think it rational at the present, that any one of her children should promise himself the deliver∣ance of his Friends in the turning of a man's Hand, and at so easie a rate, as a short Prayer, or the weeping of a quarter of an hour amounts to?
Thirdly, That he had not been able to forbear spending some part of that little time, which he had designed for his Tears, in fruitless be∣wailings of his own loss; expressing the resentment he had conceived thereof by these words, I took a pleasure to weep concerning my self, and for my self; as if it had been seasonable, even at the very Time, that he was (as is pretended) to represent to himself the extraordinaty Exi∣gences of his Mother, to look another way, and make any reflection on his own concernments?
Fourthly, That he did not (for ought appears to us) engage himself,