committed, nay, which are not become even
habitual and customary to me? And to this
frequency, I have added both a greediness, and
obstinacy in sinning, turning into my course
as the horse rusheth into the battel, doing e∣vil
with both hands, earnestly, yea hating to
be reformed, and casting thy words behind
me, quenching thy Spirit within me, which
testified against me, to turn me from my evil
wayes, and frustrating all those outward
means, whether of judgment or mercy, which
thou hast used to draw me to thy self. Nay,
O Lord, even my repentances may be num∣bred
amongst my greatest sins, they have
sometimes been feigned and hypocritical, al∣wayes
so slight and ineffectual, that they have
brought forth no fruit in amendment of life,
but I have still returned with the dog to his
vomit, and the sow to the mire again, and
have added the breach of resolutions and
vowes, to all my former guilts. Thus, O
Lord. I am become out of measure sinful, and
since I have thus chosen death, I am most
worthy to take part in it, even in the second
death, the lake of fire and brimstone. This
this, O Lord, is in justice to be the portion
of my cup, to me belongs nothing but shame
and confusion of face eternally. But to thee,
O Lord God, belongeth mercy and forgive∣ness,
though I have rebelled against thee. O
remember not my sins and offences, but ac∣cording
to thy mercy think thou upon me O
Lord for thy goodness. Thou sentest thy Son