The rogue: or The life of Guzman de Alfarache. VVritten in Spanish by Matheo Aleman, seruant to his Catholike Maiestie, and borne in Seuill

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The rogue: or The life of Guzman de Alfarache. VVritten in Spanish by Matheo Aleman, seruant to his Catholike Maiestie, and borne in Seuill
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Alemán, Mateo, 1547-1614?
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CHAPTER VIII.

Guzman de Alfarache is taken out of the Prison of Seuill, to bee carried to the Port, to be put into the Gallies. Hee recounteth that which befell him on the way; as likewise in the Gallies.

I Am a Gally-Slaue, and am now come to the end, for which I was ordained, where-vnto my lewd courses were the meanes to bring mee. I must now leade that life, as the rest of my fellowes doe, who indure the like fortune. I must pull at a Rope, tugge at an Oare, and content my selfe with such poore fare, as others of my wretched condition are allow'd. I was one of the Band of the Braggards; de los, de Dios, es Christo; one of that company, who confesse Christ to bee God, and haue no other Cognizance of their Faith; for their workes march vnder the Colours, and conduct of the Diuell. I put on my white linnen breeches, my colour'd Stockins, my cut Doublet, and my Holland Night-Cap; all vvhich my kinde and louing Mulata had sent me; liuing in hope, that in time the Dice would turne, and that she might one day see me againe at libertie. What with the helpe that I had from her, and what with those my fees, that I reco∣uered (as due vnto me) from those new Prisoners that came in, I led a fine gentle life, as also the life of a Gentile; for such is the qualitie of such as I am, when they are admitted into such a famous schoole as that is, where such a deale of Roguery is profest.

I had now got some oyle to my Lampe, some money in my purse, partly out of other mens deuotions, and partly out of mine owne indeuours; I did lend vpon pawnes, of euery single Royall I made dayly a a 1.1 Quarte profit; I did such from those that were fresh men, and newly come in amongst vs; not one of them that scap't my fingers, all that came vnder my hands paid soundly for it. When they were asleepe, I would play the wagge with them, putting the snuffe of a Candle on the top of their shooe, and holding matches of brim∣stone vnder their noses, or rolling a Card, let the smoke runne vp into their nostrils, till it were ready to choake them; and a thousand other the like kna∣uish tricks. For albeit God is there knowne, yet is hee not feared. They haue * 1.2 no more respect vnto him, then if they were so many Pagans. And for the most part, those that come to the like misery, are Ruffians, and High-way robbers, a brutish and beastly kinde of people. And it must be either a great wonder, or mis-fortune, that such a one as I should come thither; and when it so falleth out, the reason of it is, because God blindeth their vnderstanding, to the end, that by leading them this way, he may bring them to the acknow∣ledgement of their sinne; and that they may in time come to a clearer know∣ledge of him, learne to serue him, and so be saued.

There was a Ruffian, a notable shauer (in my time whilest I was there) who being condemned to death, and put into the enfermiria, or that quarter, * 1.3 where the sicke are cured; whence he was to be taken forth the next day to be executed, seeing some of those that had the guarding of him, playing at three-hand Primera, he rose from his banke, he made to them as well as hee could, crawling along, with his two paire of fetters, and a great chaine; and they asking him, whither he would? Hee told them; I come hither, to passe away the time a while.

The Guards that had the charge of him, told him, that it was fitter that he should betake himselfe to his prayers, and recommend himselfe and his

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Soule vnto God. Where-vnto, he answered, I haue pray'd already all that I can pray; I haue not one prayer more left me. I haue no more to doe, then what I haue done already; and therefore shufflle, and deale about, and fill out some Wine, and let the cup walke; that we may wash away sorrow, and rid away that care, which is ready to choake my heart. They replyde, it was ve∣ry late, and that the Tauerne doore was shut, and there was no getting in. Goe tell then (said he) the fellow that keepes it, that it is for me, and that's inough; I warrant you, hee will not deny me. And therefore no more words, my Ma∣sters, but play on, and follow your sport; for I sweare vnto you, that I know not what will become of this businesse, nor what the issue thereof will be.

They dance all to this Tune. Others there are, that will haue their Head and Beard neatly trimm'd, that they may seeme the handsomer when they come to the Gallowes, and be said to be proper men, and well-fauour'd; and will likewise take order to haue a fine cleane starcht-Ruffe, daintily and curiously set; it seeming perhaps vnto them, that the wearing of that, and the bearing their Bigotes high, turn'd vp with hot irons, and stiffened with gums, should be their saluation, and bring them to heauen. And as in good Philosophy, mens complexions follow generally the goodnesse, or badnesse of their meats; so may it likewise of the good or bad company that we keepe. Whence grew that Prouerbe: No a 1.4 con quien naces, si no con quien paces. We must not iudge of men by their birth, but by their breeding. It is their conuersation, that must giue them their denomination.

Now I was one of these, and like a barbarous and ill-bred fellow, would faine imploy that little money which I had, in renting one of those (a) Bode∣gones belonging to the Prison; but fearing a day, that they would on the sud∣den * 1.5 strike vp an Alarme, and so I might chance to lose all, I did not doe it; and I thinke I did well in it. For now that wee beganne to make a number of some sixe and twenty Gally-slaues, & were grown so vnruly in the Prison, that there was no ho with vs; the Keeper was halfe afraid, that wee would make some hole or other in the Meshe, and finde a time to get out of the net; and therefore laboured all that hee could to be discharged of vs.

One Munday morning wee were called vp, and giuing euery one of vs a Testimoniall of his Sentence, wee were all chained one to another: And * 1.6 being thus threaded as it were vpon foure chaines, wee were deliuered ouer to the Commissary, who was to conuey vs by little iourneys to the Port, faire and softly, foot after foot, and as we could hale our haltred legges after vs; our pace, like our irons, being very heauy.

In this manner went we out of Seuill, to the great griefe and sorrow of our Parents and Kinsfolke, and other our good friends, who went tearing their hayre, as we past along the streetes, and scratching their faces with their nayles, euery one according to the loue and respect which shee bare vnto her friend. And they on the other side, pulling their Hats ouer their eyes, went along like so many meeke and gentle Lambes, and not with that Lyon-like looke, and haughty carriage, as they were wont heretofore; it was not any brauing now, or out-facing of the matter, that could doe them good. Arro∣gancie was out of request with them, and would not serue the turne. I can∣not deny, but it did touch me for my part to the very quicke, it went to the heart of mee: especially, when I called to minde the merry life that I had led, the good state wherein I had liu'd; if I had had but the grace to keepe my selfe well, while I was well; and to see the misery, where-vnto now I was come.

Then did I begin to thinke with my selfe; If this bee so painefull vnto mee already; if this chaine doe so much torment me, that I can scarce indure it; if I feele such trouble now, and if this befall me while the wood is greene, what

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will it doe, when it growes old and dry? What torment will they feele that are condemned for euer to perpetuall paine? Musing vpon these things, I past along thorow the streetes of Seuill, for my Mother did not come to accom∣panie me, nor was she willing to see mee. And I was the onely man amongst them all, that was Solus cum solo, left alone to my selfe.

We walkt along very leisurely, which (God wot) was slowly inough, yet as fast as we could conueniently; for when my chaine was slacke, and I was offering to goe forward, my next fellow would oftentimes pull mee backe, which hee could not sometimes doe withall, and sometimes againe would stop of set purpose, as his necessarie occasions did require. Another, he was foundred with going bare-foot, and all the rest ready to sinke, they vvere so weary. Wee were men sensible of paine, as other men are, and being in that case as we were, none had more cause to sorrow then we; yet amongst our selues our griefes were so equall, that we had but little aduantage one of another.

O the wretched and miserable state that we liue in, and to how many va∣rious and vnfortunate chances are wee necessarily obliged! Wee came to a place called Las Cabeças; and as we went on a morning from thence, wee had scarce gone halfe a League, but that one of our company had espide a farre off, a certaine yong fellow, who was going towards Seuill, with a great many fine little young Pigs, and giuing the word one from another, wee did presently battell-wise cast our selues into a Wing, as if we had been the Tur∣kish Gallies; and marshalling our selues after the manner of a halfe Moone, wee did in such an orderly fashion set vpon them, that the points of the Hornes meeting as it were before, and in a kinde of circle-wise inclining each to other, wee had shut in the Pigges on a sudden, and incompast them so, * 1.7 that they could not get out from amongst vs, and in spight of the young fel∣lowes teeth, doe what he could for his life, euery one of vs made purchase of a fat Pigge.

The fellow began to cry out aloud, making great exclamations, and in∣treating the Commissary, that for Gods sake, hee would take order that he might haue them againe. But hee seemed to be deafe, and would not heare of that eare, as one that was to haue the greatest share in this bootie; and so wee past on along with our prey, leauing the poore Clowne to goe seeke his remedy else-where. Wee knew the worst of it alreadie, so that our care, and our pitie were much about one.

About noone, when wee came to our Inne where wee were to rest our selues, and with a little sleepe to passe ouer the heat of the day, the Com∣missary called to vs for the share that hee was to haue of this our theft: for, being that he was consenting there-vnto, the Accessorie was to haue as much as the Principall; the Assentant, as the Assaylant. Hee commanded one of them to bee rosted for him; where-vpon there arose a great stirre and tu∣mult amongst vs, being ready to goe together by the eares, whilest we were arguing the Case, which of vs was to part with his Pigge. For amongst vs * 1.8 all, there were scarce three of vs that had the vse of reason.

When I saw the Mutiny, that was amongst them, and that in the carriage of this busines, he might (and that iustly) blame me the more, because my vn∣derstanding * 1.9 was more then theirs: I said vnto him; Master Commissary, my Pigge is heere ready at your seruice, dispose of it as you please: And if you shall so thinke it fit, seeing heere is Guard sufficient vpon vs, may it please you to comaund them to vnchaine me, and I will take the paines to dresse it for you with mine owne hands: for I haue some reliques yet remayning of a good Cooke. He thankefully accepted of this my ciuill Compliment, and said vnto me; Of all this company, that is heere vnder my charge, I must true∣ly confesse vnto thee, I haue, since my first knowledge of thee, obserued in

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thee a certaine kind of noblenes, and free nature, which cannot but proceed from some good blood. I therfore thanke you for this your present, and take it kindely at your hands, and shall be very glad to eate it, as you shall order it for me. I was taken from the chayne; & being recommended to the Guards, * 1.10 I call'd for such things as were necessary: but because the Inne was ill proui∣ded of such things as I would haue had, to shewe my Cookerie, I could shew my skill no farther, then in the well rosting of it, with a fewe eggs battered together, and seasoned with a little pepper, & salt: I would haue made a pud∣ding in it's bellie, but I wanted necessaries. I minced the liuer, & of that, and such other things as I could for the present, I made him sauce to his Pigge, which I knewe well how to doe.

At the same time some Trauaylours came in, to take their ease, who were not a little sorry to finde vs there: for that they were halfe afraid that their eares were scarce sure on their heads amongst such a company of Rogues as we were. The Table whereat they were to sit, wàs a long planke, neeere ad∣ioyning to a bench of stone: they were to eate altogether. The Commissary kindly saluted them, and they him; and after a fewe Compliments were ex∣changed betweene them, they sate three in a file, and one of them taking his Port-mantua vnto him, and putting it betweene his legges, vnder the boord, he there likewise lay'd his Alforjas, or wallet, wherein he had Cheese, a Bot∣tle of Wine, and a peice of a Gammon of Bacon; and that he might the bet∣ter take it out, he did thrust his Port-mantua a little forward, leauing the Al∣forjas in the midst betweene his legges. I, when I saw that he was so warie, began to suspect, that it was not without cause, and calling to the Hostesse for a Knife, I closely clapt it in betweene my arme, and my sleeue: And put∣ing a great earthen Iarre full of water, vnderneath the boord, and in it, a Bot∣tle of Wine; that the Commissary might haue it fresh and coole, when hee should call for it; as oft as I stoopt downe to powre out his wine, by little & little, I fell to fingering of the Port-mantua, till at last, hauing made a shift to vndoe all the Buttons, and giuing it a gentle slash close where the Chaine ranne along, that made all fast, I nimbly tooke out two little bundles, but som∣what * 1.11 weighty withall, which I presently conuay'd very handsomely into my Gally-sloppes, where there was Sea-roome inough for them; and afterwards buttoning it vp iust in the same fashion as it was before, it was close and well, and not any signe to be seene of this theft that I had made.

When they had made an end of their dinner, the Cloth was taken away, and hauing paid their reckoning, away went these Trauailours; and we like∣wise began to prouide to be packing: for we also were to be gone. Soto, my Camerade, was fastned to another Chayne, somwhat farther off from mee, * 1.12 then I could haue wish't it, which did not a little grieue me, because this di∣stance did hinder our more priuate talke; but before they brought me back againe to my Chayne, I came vnto him, and secretly deliuered vnto him those two bundles, desiring him to keepe them safe for mee, till we should meete with some better occasion, to knowe what was in them. He receiued them with a great deale of ioy, and killing his Pigge vnknowne to any, he thrust them both into the body of it, placing the intralls before the mouth of the wound, as well, that the bundles might not droppe out, as also to hide them * 1.13 thereby the better out of sight.

Now when they were going to put me to the Chayne, I intreated the Có∣missary to doe me the fauour, that I might be filed next to this my old friend and acquaintance. He willingly granted my request; so one was taken out of that file, and he and I were ranked together, that other and my selfe ex∣changing places.

We went lazily on along, as the fashion is, & as we were pacing these our leisurely steps, I rounded Soto softly in the eare, and said vnto him; How

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now (my Camarade) what hast thou done with that which I gaue thee to keepe? How hast thou dispos'd of it? But he, as if hee had not knowne mee, or had not giuen him any such thing at all, made so strange of it, that hee made me to suspect, that according to the custome of that Country, hee had drunke a cup too much, and so might happely haue forgot it. Where-vpon, I went putting him in minde, when and where I gaue it him. But hee still denyde any such deliuerie. And in the end grew some-what hot and angry with me, asking mee, whether I were drunke, or well in my wits, that I should demand any such thing of him, or make him beleeue, that I had de∣liuered him either this, or that? I vnderstand you not, I neither know you, nor it, nor haue anything of yours, and therefore all that I can say vnto you, is; That for mee you must goe looke it. Nothing I had of you, and no∣thing are you like to get from mee.

You cannot imagine, nor am I able to expresse the great both anger, and sorrow that I had, that I should be so vnthankefully dealt withall, and receiue such hard measure from one, to whom I had done so many good offices, and lou'd so truely, as I did him. For, there was not that morsell of meat, that went downe my throat, whereof he had not his share; nor that money in my purse, whereof I did not diuide halfe with him. And my purpose was, that he should likewise share with mee in this. But that hee should thus breake the * 1.14 bonds of friendship, and deny, (and that so insolently, and impudently) that I had euer giuen him any such thing; this was it that troubled me; this was it that vext mee to the very heart.

He was a man of an ill condition, his concoction was not good, and hee was so moued vpon these words of mine, and so out of all patience, that in a thundring voice he beganne to bolt out oathes and blasphemies, insomuch that the Commissarie was inforced to correct him with a Cudgell. I, relying on the fauour he had shewne me, intreated him to beare with him, because he was angry, and in choller, which was the cause of this his intemperancie. And he being desirous to know the cause of this his distemperature; I began to apprehend with my selfe, that Soto would reserue all this for him; and I made this reckoning with my selfe; If I shall acquaint the Commissarie with * 1.15 that which had past betweene vs, it may bee, that though I should not haue all, yet at least, some part of the bootie might fall to my share.

This thiefe (thought I) shall not carry it away so; hee shall not haue all the thankes, and laugh at me when he has done. I will not bee thus gull'd by him. And therefore I resolued with my selfe, to acquaint him with the whole successe of the businesse, who, I presumed, would not be a little glad of it, out of the greedy and couetous desire that he would haue to take that bone from vs, which we two stroue for.

Herevpon (being informed by me) he commanded Soto, that he should pre∣sently giue him that which I had giuen him. He stoutly denies, that hee had any thing of me. The guards are will'd to search him; they doe so; and when they had done the vtmost of their diligence, they could finde no such thing about him, nor any the least signe or token thereof. Where-vpon I gathered, that he had done as I did, deliuering the same ouer to some other body, to keepe it safe for him.

I told the Commissary, that there was no question to be made of it, but that he had secretly conuay'd it away to some one or other of this our compa∣ny, for that really and truly he receiued it of me, who gaue the same vnto him with mine owne hands. When he saw, that neither by faire meanes, nor by foule, by perswasions, nor threatnings, nor any other course that hee tooke with him, he could be brought to manifest the truth, and to bring these things to light; the Commissary commanded they should take him aside, and put him to the Racke, till they should make him to confesse. And for that they

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had no other instruments there, saue Cords, they applide them to those his lower parts; and when vpon their twisting, they began to straine some-what hard vpon the flesh, which was too delicate and sensible to indure any tor∣ture, being likewise a faint-hearted fellow, and of little or no courage, hee forth-with confessed, whither he had conuayd them. Therevpon, they pre∣sently tooke his Pigge from him, (so that he lost that too by the bargaine) and taking out the intrals to see what was there, they quickly lighted on the two little bundles, in either of which was a Rosario, or set of Beads of the perfect∣est, and the daintiest pure Corall, that euer mine eyes saw; euery Bead at both ends, hauing his Cap of Gold, which was much graced by the neat cutting and inameling that was bestowed vpon them, which (it should seeme) were sent as tokens to two seuerall persons.

The Commissary makes no more adoe, but presently claps them vp in his pocket, promising to befriend me for it, and to giue mee, what I my selfe should aske for them. Soto was herewith so madded, and so extremely in∣censed against me, that they were forced to change our chaines, and set vs far∣ther asunder then before; for though we were thus diuided, and parted each from other, they did afterwards fall to manacling of him, fastning both his wrists together with bolts of iron, because when he came where any stones were, he would take them vp, and throw them at me.

In this troublesome manner we came at last vnto the Gallies, iust vpon the very nicke, when they were calking, and rigging, and making all ready to put forth to Sea, and to goe in chase. And before they brought vs aboord, they carried vs to a Prison, where wee past ouer that night, with the like in com∣moditie and trouble, as at other times. Nay rather, it was worse with vs now, then heretofore, for that the Prison was little, and cramm'd as full as euer it could hold. But be it better, or bee it worse, such as it was, wee were forced to take all in good part, and to make as good shift as we could. For we could not doe as we would, nor make choise of 〈◊〉〈◊〉 place to our liking.

The Commissary had talkt in the meane while with the Kings Officers; who came with those other of the Gallies, and the Kings Alguazil; and ha∣uing now assigned and appointed vs our Bankes, where wee were to sit and rowe, they gaue the Commissary a discharge for the deliuering so ma∣ny Slaues into their hands, who told mee, that he would come and see me; and that he would stand my very good friend; so he betooke him to his Mule, and from that day forward, I did neuer more set eye on him.

Now, before that they tooke vs out of Prison, to leade vs along to the Gallies, they had ordered how wee should bee diuided, and it fell out, that wee were to goe sixe and sixe in a fyle; in which diuision, it was my ill lucke (thankes to my sinnes, that laid this punishment vpon me) to haue Soto to be my Camerade.

This done, they presently deliuered vs ouer to certaine Moorish Slaues, who with their halfe Pikes came to guard vs along, and tying our hands with tough thongs, which they had brought with them for that purpose, away we goe with them. We come aboord the Gally, where-into being en∣tred, wee were willed to retire our selues to the poope, till that the Cap∣taine and the Masters-Mate should come, and call vs out one by one, pla∣cing euery man in this, or that other Banke, as they thought fit; now, when they were come amongst vs, they went walking vp and downe on the Coursey, or the Gallerie-like space, on both sides whereof, the Slaues Bankes are placed: and whilest they were looking on the bankes, and ad∣uising with themselues where it were fittest to dispose of vs; the other Gal∣ly-slaues began to set out their throats, and to cry out aloud vnto them, desi∣ring that they would disperce vs amongst them; some complaining that they had an vnprofitable member amongst them; others, that all in their Banke

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were weake and feeble persons, vnable to doe any seruice.

But the Captain•…•…, and the Masters-Mate, not giuing eare to their cla∣mours, but gouerning themselues by their owne discretion, hauing conside∣red what was fittest to be done, placed vs heere and there, as they saw cause: in which partition it fell to my lot, to be ranked in the second Banke, iust be∣fore the Cooke-roome, neere vnto the Masters-Mates Cabin, at the foot of the Mast; hauing placed, Soto in the Patrone, or Masters Banke. It grieu'd me very much, that he was seated so neere vnto me, in regard of the late quarrell that had beene betweene vs; for wee could neuer afterwards indure one ano∣ther; and he, me lesse, then I could him; for he was a malitious minded man, & had intertained in his heart a deep hatred against me; though I (for my part) neuer did deny him my friendship, nor was euer wanting vnto him, when∣soeuer he had occasion to vse me: but he, like the Commissary, would haue all to himselfe, if I should haue let him alone. And all he should haue had, and that with a very good will, if I had but once thought, that hee would haue cry'de quits with mee, and paid mee home in mine owne coyne. When they had brought mee to the Banke, those that were there, bade mee welcome; in requitall whereof, I could haue wisht, that I had beene able to say vnto them; Excuse me, that I cannot come.

They installed me in my seat, and put on the Kings Robes vpon me, two * 1.16 Shirts, two paire of linnen Breeches, a colour'd Wastecoat, and a red Cap. I was scarce warme in my seat, when a base vnder-Barber comes vnto mee, a better Shauer, then a Cutter, and with his Razor, makes my head and Beard: as bare as my hand, which I tooke to heart, for the great account I made there∣of. But re-collecting my spirits, I beganne to comfort my selfe, that this was the fortune of the world, and that others, that had beene in farre higher place, had falne into farre greater miseries.

I remoued my eyes from those that were before mee, and looked towards those that were behinde me: not considering so much with my selfe how ma∣ny were more happy, but how many were more wretched then I was. O this looking downeward is a comfortable thing to a man in misery. And albeit, it be true, that there is not any life almost so miserable, as that of a Gally-Slaue, yet was it not halfe so bad as that which I indured vvith my first Wife. And it was some comfort besides vnto mee, that I was not a lone man in this my afflictions, but had many fellowes that suffered the like torment.

A yong fellow that belonged to the Alguazil, made presently towards mee, to clappe fetters on my feet, and manacles on my hands, chaining mee, and other my companions, that sate together on the same Banke, so fast, and so sure, that wee could not stirre from thence. Then did they giue mee my allowance, which was sixe and twenty ounces of Bisket; it so fell out, that that day was (as we call it) dia de Caldero, the Caldron day, for the boi∣ling of flesh, and making of pottage: And because I was but a new-comer, and was vnprouided of a woodden dish, I tooke my part of those mam∣mocks that were shared amongst vs, with one of my fellowes that sate by mee. I would not offer to soke my Bisket in it, but chew'd it downe dry, as all your fresh-men doe at the first, till time had taught mee the vse of my armes.

The paine we were put to for the present was little or nothing; for the Gallies being then a trimming, and a calking, wee that were the ghing, the base rout, and raskalitie of the Gallies, seru'd as then for no other vse, but to row towards the shore, when wee were so commanded, and to make prouision of boughes, or something else for shade, lest the heare of the Sunne should melt the tallow. All the cloathes that I brought aboord with mee into the Gally, I made show of them, and sold them; vvhich yeelded

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mee some money, though not much, adding that, to that other little summe, which I brought with me, when I came out of Prison. Nor did I know in the world, how, or where I might secretly lay it vp, and keepe it safe, either to relieue mee in such necessities as vsually offer themselues, or to imploy it in some one thing or other, that I might haue a penny in my purse at a pinch. And for that I had neither Coffer, Chest, nor so much as a Deske, that had a Locke and Key to it, where I might safely lay it vp, it did some-what trou∣ble me, not being able to deuise with my selfe, what I were best to doe with it. To carry it still about mee, were to runne the hazzard of beeing robb'd, or coozen'd of it by my owne Camerades: And to commit it to another bo∣dies keeping, I had already too late experience of the ill correspondence in that kinde.

All I saw, was ill, it concern'd me to looke well vnto it, and to be-thinke my selfe, how I should dispose of it. At last (after long consideration) I resol∣ued with my selfe, that I could not giue it a better or more secret place, then to clappe it in my bosome, and to lay it as neere to my heart as I could possibly bring it. Others put their hearts there, where they put their treasure: but I tooke a cleane contrary course, putting my treasure where my heart was.

Well, I got me a needle and thread, and clapping my Thimble on my fin∣ger, I fell to worke, and made mee vp a little Purse, about the bignesse of a Wax-kernell, which being strongly sowed, and quilted with many a sure stitch vpon that part of my shirt, which toucht vpon my heart, I bare it there, neuer suffering it to be out of my sight; and hauing still an eye vpon it, that it might bee the safer from its friends, and my enemies, who would bee euer and anon leering that way, casting a sheepes eye towards it; but hee, whose mouth watered most at it, and had a months minde to be doing with it, was a notable famous Thiefe, that was my Camerade, and sate next vnto mee, who could neuer come to filch it from mee, neither at mid-night, nor at at any other time, so surely did I guard it on that side. Yet was hee not wanting to doe his best; for, when he perceiu'd that I was asleepe, hee would goe groping heere and there, visiting euery part about mee with his hand; and for that the roomes were but few, and the houshold-stuffe that belong'd vnto them, not much, they were easily and quickly runne ouer. Hee had past ouer in a trice, a little Satchell that I had by my side, my Gabar∣dine, and my Breeches, and was come now at last to my Waste-coat, which I might more properly haue termed my Soule: for that with its warmth, it did viuifie, and quicken the bloud, whereby it sustained it selfe, and was kept aliue. Wee both labour'd hard, hee to robbe, I to keepe. He was not so crafty, but I was as carefull. And if at any time I did strip my selfe naked, I vvould order the businesse so, that it should be impossible for him to take it from vnder mee, vnlesse he tooke mee away with it. Hee continued a long time in this his care to come by it, watching all opportunities to rob me of it.

Now, in the meane while, forasmuch as I did consider with my selfe, that wheresoeuer a man liues, hee had need of an Angell of guard to attend him vpon all occasions; I beganne to bethinke my selfe whom I should make choyse of to bee my Protector. And after that I had thorowly thought there-vpon, I could not finde out any fitter for my turne, then the Masters-Mate. For albeit it be true, that the Captaine, as Lord, and chiefe Comman∣der of all the rest, is to bee accounted the onely Protector of vs all; yet, out of his authoritie and greatnesse of his Place, hee will not trouble himselfe with this raskall rabble.

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we be, nor take any notice who, or what we are. And I was the willinger to make this choyce, for that the Masters-Mate was my neere neighbour, his Cabbin was close by my Banke, by meanes whereof, I might the easier and more conueniently serue him. And so much the rather was I desirous to settle vpon him, because hee carried the Cudgell, and had the possession of the salt Eele, which hee distributed amongst vs, either more or lesse, accor∣ding as he fauour'd, or dis-fauour'd; paying some soundly, and letting others goe scot-free.

Thus by little and little, I went scruing my selfe into his seruice, getting more ground still vpon him, and striuing to out-strip the rest: As vvell in my attendance at his boord, as in hauing him to bed; I trickt vp his Cab∣bin, brusht his Cloathes, kept them neat and handsome, lookt to his lin∣nen, and was in euery other respect so diligent about him, that within a few dayes I was the onely man in his eye. Nor did I account it as a small fa∣uour, that hee would deigne mee a good looke: It seeming vnto mee, as oft as hee lookt vpon mee, that hee had bestow'd a Bull (I meane not the Pizzle) vpon mee, and a free Indulgence from stripes, and that hee did thereby ab∣solue mee both à culpa, & poena: From my fault, and the punishment thereof. But therein I was deceiued; for that they beeing naturally seuere and cruell, and that commonly such kinde of sterne and austere men are put into such places, they neuer haue an eye to consider courtesies, not seeking to requite good, but to punish ill.

They are a people, that will not acknowledge any thankefulnesse, be∣cause all that wee doe for them, they thinke to bee due vnto them. A nights I did ridde the Dandruffe out of his head, rubb'd his feet, fann'd his face, destroyed the Gnats, and waited on him with that obseruance and punctua∣litie, that the greatest Prince in the world could not bee better serued. And if they serue their Prince for loue, I did the like to the Masters-Mate for feare; lest the Hoope of a Hogs-head, or an Eeles tayle should twine it selfe about my shoulders, which kinde of weapons they neuer goe with∣out. And howbeit it bee true, that this manner of seruice is not so per∣fect, nor so noble as the other; yet feare makes men to take more heed. And now and then when I saw hee was waking, and had no minde to sleepe, I would entertaine him with a merry Fable, or pleasant Historie, to passe away the time the better. And I was neuer vnprouided of a com∣pany of witty iests, and fine conceits, to make his Worship laugh: It being no small comfort to mee, to see him looke cheerefully. I grew in grace with him, and was very happy in this particular; yet am I so much priuieto mine owne worth, that it was no more then my good seruice did deserue. So that now, hee would not that any other, saue my selfe, should serue him in those things, which gaue him the greatest content. And I had more especiall rea∣son to esteeme of this his fauour towards mee, in regard that hee had a Gally-slaue, before hee entertained me, that attended on his Person. Whom, though hee vsed well, yet hee went dayly pyning and consuming away, that hee was very sorry to see it. For, though hee led a better life then the rest, and that hee lou'd him so well, that he fed him from his owne trencher, and bestow'd the best morsels vpon him; yet was he like your Gaeta-colts, which the better you feed them, the worse they proue.

One day, when wee were both together with him, waiting at the ta∣ble, he said vnto mee; I prethe (Guzman) tell met (for thou art a Scholler, and an vnderstanding fellow) what should bee the reason, that Fermen being, at his first comming into the Gallies, of a very able body, strong, fat, and lusty, and I hauing sought to continue him still in the same state, by entertaining him into my seruice, and doing other friendly Offices for him, not eating that good morsell, whereof hee hath not a part, should, the more I make of

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him, fall (as thou seest) the more away? Whereunto I made answere; Sir, for to giue resolution to this your question, it will be needfull for me to relate vnto you another case, like vnto this, of a new Christian, who had past tho∣row the hands of the Holy-House, or (as we commonly call it) the Inqui∣sition. * 1.17

This man was rich, and powerfull, liu'd honourably, and in a plentifull fashion, led a merry life, waxed plump, and fat, had all things neate and hand∣some about him, and tooke much content in the house wherein he dwelt. Now it so fell out, that one of the Inquisitors came and tooke a house, that was the very next doore to his; who, for no other reason in the world, saue only that he wasso neere a neighbour vnto him, grewe so meager, and so leane thereupon, that within a very short time, he was brought so lowe, and pi∣ned so fast away, that he was nothing but skinne and bone. So that to both these, I shall giue Solution, by another the like accident, which I shall deliuer for truth vnto you, and thus it was:

Muley Almançor (who was King of Granada) had a great Priuado, or * 1.18 principall fauourite of his, who was called el Alcayde Buferiz; a very wise man, punctuall, trusty, and hauing many other good parts, worthy the great loue that his Lord and Master bare vnto him; for the which his King lou'd him so dearely, as also for the trust and confidence that he had in him; (for there was not any difficulty in the world, which he would not wade thorow, so as it might make for his Maiesties seruice) And for that those, that deserue these kinde of honours, are euermore enuy'd by those that are vnworthy of them, there were not some wanting, who, hearing the King speake of his loue and affection towards this his Fauourite, said vnto him; Sir, that your Maie∣stie may see, whether that bee true or no, for which you so much commend your Alcayde; would you be pleased to make proofe of him in some busines of importance, and where in there is some difficultie; and then shall you finde, whether he be that maner of man, that you take him to bee: For by the dili∣gence that he shall vse therein, your Maiestie shall truly knowe, whether his heart be with you or no. The King liked exceeding well of this motion, and said; I will not only command him in a busines that is difficult, but such a one, as is impossible to be effected. And causing him forth-with to be called in, he said vnto him; Alcayde, I haue a thing to giue you in charge, which you must accomplish out of hand, vpon paine of my displeasure, and the losse of my fauour; And this it is; I shall deliuer ouer vnto you, a good fat Weather, which you shall keepe at home in your owne house, you shall giue the same al∣lowance of meat, as he was wont to haue heretofore, and more, if more hee will eate; and within a Moneth, you must returne him back vnto me, poore, and leane as a rake.

This poore Moore, whose desire was neuer other, then to serue his King, & punctually to performe whatsoeuer hee should bee pleased to cōmaund him; how beit he did beleeue, that he should neuer be able to bring such an impos∣sibilitie as this, to passe; was not therewith dismayed a whit, but readily, and with a cheerfull countenance receiuing the Weather, he caused it to be crary∣ed home to his house, according as the King had commaunded: And there sitting downe, and deuising with himselfe, how he might bring this busines a∣bout, and giue satisfaction to his Masters desire; hee began to set his wits a∣worke, and at last lighted vpon a strange, yet a naturall conceit, which, he pre∣sumed, would make much for his purpose, and cumply vvith the Kings commaund.

Hee caused two woodden Cages to bee made out of hand, both strongly barr'd, and of equall bignesse, the which, he gaue order should be placed very neere each to other; in one of the which he puts me the Weather, and in the other hard by him, a Wolfe: To the Weather, he gaue his full allowance; but

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the Wolfe, he kept so short, that he was still exceeding hungry; And being almost famished for want of meate, he did labour all that he could (thrusting his legges within the grates) to reach at the Weather, and to try if hee could come at him, and eate him. The fearefull Weather, being much troubled, and sorry at the heart, to see himselfe so neere his mortall enemy, although he did eate that which they gaue him, he did thriue so ill with it, out of the con∣tinuall feare that he was in, that he did not only not waxe fat, but pin'd a∣way, till he was pure skinne and bone. By this course that he had taken with him, he returned at the time apoynted: the Weather back againe to his King, not failing in that he was commauned, nor falling from his accustomed grace and fauour.

Now that I may apply this Story to the purpose wee haue in hand; It seemeth vnto mee, that Fermin is growne leane and feeble, by beeing so neere about you, and by liuing in that grace and fauour with you, as he doth: And it is only the feare which he hath of you, whom he so much desires to serue, that makes him to thriue no better then he does.

The Masters-Mate was so well pleased with this Tale of mine, because it fell out so pat to the purpose, that he presently gaue order to haue me remo∣ued from my Banke, receiuing me into his seruice, and giuing me the charge of his Wardrobe, and of his Table, for that hee had alwaies found me suitable to his desires. Nor, (for all this fauour that he shewed vnto mee, which was very great in releasing me from the obligation of a Slaue, and exercising such duties, as were required in the Galley) would I forbeare (for mine owne pleasure) to come sometimes amongst them, and to doe as they did; but would now and then, of mine owne accord, fall to my labour, that I might not bee to seeke, if out of necessity I should chance to be put vnto it.

There did I learne to knit Stockins, to make false Dice, as your High-men, * 1.19 and your Low-men, setting two Aces one against another, or two Sixes on one Dye, for your Coggers and Cheaters, who, for the vse that they made of them, would pay well for them. I likewise there learn'd to make Buttons, both of Silke, and of haire; as also dainty delicate Tooth-picks, of diuers sun∣dry inuentions, and colours, and neatly guilded; which none in the Galley could do besides my selfe. My poyze being put into this ballāce; that is, stand∣ing vpon these euen termes, we were forced to goe with our Galley to Cadiz, for Masts, and Main-yards, Sayles, Pitch, Tarre, Tallowe, and the like necessa∣ries; and this Voyage was the first, wherein I was put to any paines: For, being so much friended by the Masters-Mate, as I was, they did not force me to doe any more worke, then what I would my selfe.

And for that this did not seeme to me, to bee a matter of any great labour, that I might not shewe my selfe an idle spectator, or that I did seeke to auoyd paines-taking, especially, being that wee were not to giue the chase, or for∣ced to betake our selues to flight; where, and in which cases, we were to rowe for our liues, and to tugge with all the strength and force that we had, at the Oare; And for that, when we were once in the Port, and had a good Hauen to friend, we did vsually lye quiet, and were neuer whipt, and had our inter∣tainements, and pastimes, presuming that between Port, and Port, especi∣ally being so neere, there needed not the sinewes of an Oxe, to hale and pull; I would needs set my selfe to the Oare, only to try what manner of thing it was: But it was not so slight and easie a thing, as I tooke it to be: for (be∣cause we were forced to goe towing the Masts, and Main-yards) when wee came to cast Anchor, I was nothing but wearines and sweat, because I would not leaue my Oare, nor giue occasion to others to murmur, by withdrawing my hand from that, which for mine owne pleasure I had voluntarily vnder∣taken. And this was the only, and sole cause, why so soone, and so soundly, (after I had had my Master to bed) I fell asleepe, falling like a stone, flat to the

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ground; giuing very good signes and tokens thereof to my Camerades, who heard me now to doe that, which they had neuer heard me doe be∣fore; to wit, to snort like a yong sucking Pigge. That Traytour of mine owne Banke, was the first (as being neerest vnto me) that heard me rout; and calling softly to another of my fellowes that was his Consort, one that was his very good friend, and whom he might best trust, acquainted him with his desire, and the good occasion that was now offered, to robbe me of that little money that I had. They ioyn'd both together, as well in the manner of sharing it, as of taking it from me. Which they had gone cleare * 1.20 away with, if I had not had the Alcalde to friend. They tooke it as easily from mee, as they could wish; passing it presently from Banke to Banke, to the further end of the Galley; perswading themselues, that because it was night, and not perceiued by any, both of them stiffely denying it, they should, without any more adoe, carry away the prey, and deuide the spoyle between them.

Now, when it was day, they all began to wake, and I amongst the rest, got vp, heauie of sleepe, but light of purse: for that weight which I was wont to feele lying vpon my heart, I felt no more; and it did much trouble me, that it did not trouble me. I lookt about, and found my money gone; I was strooke as dead as a doore-nayle; death was in my face, and I knew not what to doe. If I held my peace, I should heare no more newes of it, but must giue it for lost; and if I should speake thereof, I should roast all my part there∣of (as the Prouerb is) vpon my finger, and put all in mine eye, that I should get by the bargaine. Now was I put out of the possession of that which I had inioyed so long; Whereupon I said with my selfe; If he that hath taken it from me, will giue me no thankes for it, much lesse shall I reape any benefit from him; better it were notwithstanding, that he should keeepe it, that has it, for it may be, that at some time or other, he will not be wanting to make some acknowledgement thereof; and he at last may come to be punished, who did mee this wrong: at least, he will eate his meate with sorrow, when hee sees he shall reape no profit by it. But this Counsaile did not please mee.

Now, when the Masters-Mate was ready to rise, I brought him his cloathes and while he was making himselfe ready, I made hima long relation of my mis-fortune, making him (to my cost) to knowe, and to touch, as it were with the hande the miserie of those men, who hauing purst vp a few pence with a great deale of labour and paines-taking, earning it very hardly, are, either by mischance, or by a pilfering hand, depriued thereof in an in∣stant: Telling him moreouer, that I had brought those moneys from Seuill, amongst which, I had likewise put those other, which I had made of my cloathes that I sold, when I came aboord the Galley, which I kept as charily as I could for my life, that I might there-with either relieue my necessiti∣es, when occasion should serue, or else imploy it on some one thing or other, that might yeeld me profit. And as I was opening my minde thus vn∣to him, I likewise opened my bosome, and shew'd him the false stuffing, wherein I had put it, the mold, or indented marke whereof, these Theeues had left behinde them, being for all the world, such a kinde of print, as a Hare leaues in her Forme, when she is newly gone out of it.

It seemed to the Masters-Mate, that this that I told him, was an euident truth, and giuing credit vnto me, strengthened the more in his beliefe by this empty Forme, where the Hare was vs'd to sit, as also, out of the loue that hee bare vnto me, he commaunded the two fore-Bankes, and six other that were in the rere, to be had in Coramnobis; whereupon, the Alguazils seruant, cōming amongst them with a good Ropes end, (which your Sea-faring men * 1.21 call a salt Eele) gaue euery one of them fifty sound blowes apiece, which made the wheales to bunch out vpon their backs, leauing the skinne clinging

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close vnto them: Examining first euery one by himselfe, whether he had seene or heard of this stolne money? And after they had beene well lasht, they washt them with salt, and tart Vineger, rubbing their wounds there-with, leauing their backes and sides so rent and torne, as if they had not beene men.

When this theft hapned, there was by chance a Gypsie that was not then asleepe, when my purse was stolne, and when his turne came to receiue his payment, hee confest, that hee had seene his Companion, the night be∣fore, rise from his owne Banke, and to goe to mine, but why, or wherefore he knew not.

When that Slaue perceiu'd that hee spake of him, and that hee had charg'd him in this maner, he started vp on his feet, and said; That he was in∣tangled in that chaine, which belonged to the other Banke, and that hee had sprained his foot thereby, it being wrung and wrenched by it, and that hee was faine, (for to giue himselfe ease) to clamber ouer thither, to dis-intangle himselfe. But because this reason was too weake to hold water, and carried not that fairenesse with it, as to bee taken for a iust excuse, and much lesse with those, who knew well inough on which foot hee halted, they tooke him presently to taske, and had many more stripes bestowed vpon him then any of the rest. And the Masters-Mate was so angry with the Alguazils ser∣uant, because hee did not lay them on so soundly as •…•…hee would haue him, that hee gaue order, that hee should presently haue as many bestow'd vpon him; besides a great many more which hee himselfe with his owne hand laid vpon him with the Hoope of a Hogs-head. And in this his cholericke hu∣mour, (for he was now mightily moued) hee forth-with commanded, that they should take the delinquent in hand againe, and baste him as long as they could stand ouer him; who (poore man) had more then inough before. But when hee saw that hee must goe to this geare againe, he then began to thinke with himselfe, that the Masters-Mate would neuer giue him ouer, till hee had confest the truth, and therefore held it to bee his best course, to deale plainely and truely with him, vvho had the money, by what meanes they came by it, and the plot that they had laid to get it from mee, excusing himselfe the best that hee could, as that he had no purpose of himselfe to doe it, and that he had neuer entred into the businesse, had he not otherwise been drawne into it.

Well, hee was well lasht afterwards for his offence, and my money was * 1.22 returned backe vnto mee, which I receiued with a very good-will from my Masters hand, aduising mee withall, that I should imploy it, making pro∣fit thereof, for hee should bee well pleased vvith any thing that vvere for my good.

My good fortune (like froth) beganne to increase more and more, in regard that I gaue my Master such good content. And the Gallies beeing to goe forth, which were to ioyne with those of Naples, vpon a certaine im∣ployment at Sea, I got mee a-shore, hauing a Souldiour of guard to bee my keeper, and to looke to my safe returne, where I imployed all that little money that I had, in matters of victuallage, which presently from my set∣ting forth from thence would double the cost, and it succeeded well with me. Out of that gaines, (with my Masters leaue) I made mee a sute after the fashion of an old Gally-slaue, or one that had beene of ancient standing a∣mongst them, Hose and Wastecoat of black Buckram, listed and welted hand∣somely in the seames, which (it being then the Summer season) was cooler and fresher for me, and fitter for my turne.

Now (thinking vpon my former mis-fortunes) I beganne to haue a glimpse of that light, which they inioy, who follow Vertue, and protest∣ing with a firme resolution, and settled constancie, rather to dye, then doe

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a base action; I did onely study, how I might serue my Master, how I might please his humour, and giue him all content, how I might keepe his cloathes, his Cabbin, and his table cleane and neat.

And as I was thinking and considering on these things, I said one night * 1.23 with my selfe; Guzman, thou seest heere the top of that Mountaine of mise∣ries, where-vnto thy filthy sensualitie hath brought thee: now art thou come to the highest part of it, and must either make a speedy leape downe to the bottomlesse pit of hell, or which thou mayst more easily doe, by lifting vp thy armes, take hold on Heauen. Thou seest now the care that thou hast to serue thy Master, for feare of a few stripes, vvhich being giuen to day, are not felt to morrow. Thou doest watch late, rise vp early, thou art di∣ligent, carefull, and sollicitous in seeking out new Inuentions, where-with to delight him, and to purchase his fauour, which when thou hast obtained, is but of a man, and a Masters-Mate. And this is the most thou canst make of him.

Now thou well knowest, and canst not be ignorant of it, for thou hast beene a profest Student, and hast studied that point; how much lesse God requires at thy hands, and how much more he hath to conferre vpon thee, and how farre a greater friend hee is, then any man can be vnto thee.

Rouze vp thy selfe therefore, and awake from this heauy sleepe, which op∣presseth thy soule; Returne home vnto thy selfe; and consider, that though it be true, that thy sinnes haue brought thee hither, yet so apply this thy punish∣ment vnto thee, and lay it so neere to thy heart, that thou mayst make good vse of it, and that it may turne to thy good. Thou hast sought after a stocke to imploy it for thy profit; seeke now to obtaine eternall happinesse, and lay out all that thou hast, that thou maist buy it. For it is a Iewell of inesti∣mable worth, it cannot be valued. These thy troubles, these thy miseries which thou indurest, this thy care which thou takest to serue this thy Ma∣ster, put it all to Gods account, and bee as diligent in seruing him. Charge him also with that, which thou art to lose hereafter, and hee will beare the burthen of that charge; hee will lessen thine, and adde it to his owne ac∣count. With this thou maist buy grace, which if here-tofore it bore no price with thee, (for euen the best deseruings of all the Saints that euer were, cannot raise such a stocke, whereby to be able to buy it, till their merits meet with those of our Sauiour Christ) now make much of it; and the rather see∣ing that Christ, that he may communicate this his grace vnto vs, is willingly become our brother.

What brother did euer forsake a good and a louing brother? Serue him but with a sigh, with a teare, or with a true heart-sorrow, grieuing for thy sinnes; and being angry and offended with thy selfe, that thou hast offended so good a brother: And so by giuing him that which thou hast, hee will ioyne thy stocke with his owne, and making it of an infinit price, not by thine, but his merits, thou shalt enioy life euerlasting.

In this discourse vvith my selfe, and in other, which rose out of this I spent a great part of the night, showring downe teares in aboundance, and * 1.24 waxing now heauy with the griefe for my sinnes, I fell asleepe; and when I awakt, I found my selfe another manner of man then I was before. I had cast off my old heart, and put on a new one in its place. I gaue thankes vn∣to God for this my regeneration, and that hee had renued his spirit aright in me, humbly beseeching him, that he would vphold me with his holy hand, and strengthen mee with his grace.

Presently vpon this, I treated of the frequent Confession of my sinnes, and of the reformation of my life, and of the cleansing of my conscience; in which good deliberation, I continued many dayes; but I was flesh and bloud. I did still stumble, almost at euery step, and now and then tooke a

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fall. But for any proceeding in my accustomed euill actions, I was much amended, and went from that time forward reforming my former course of life. Howbeit, for that I had exercised my selfe so much in my fore-passed ill deportments, I was still pointed at with the finger for a wicked man, which name I could neuer claw off, but did sticke close vnto me. For this is an euill, that followes euill men; that euen those good actions vvhich they doe, leaue a iealousie and suspition behinde them, and occasion, as it were, scandall to such as see them. For, though we doe them neuer so well, & with an vpright heart, yet are wee held to bee but Hypocrites. We haue a com∣mon Prouerbe amongst vs; Que se sacan por las Uisperas, los dias Santos: * 1.25 That by the Vespers, we come to know the Feasts of the Saints. So they, by my precedent actions, would iudge of the future.

But to giue the world leaue to censure things as they list, let him that would faine know whether hee stand in the state of grace or no, and liue in Gods loue and fauour, looke, and consider with himselfe, how God wor∣keth with him, and he shall easily come to know it. Vse thy best endeuours; doe that, which (as a good Christian) thou art bound to doe: so shall thy workes bee acceptable in his sight, and thou shalt know (like Abel) that God is well pleased with this thy sacrifice, and that hee hath set his eyes vpon thee.

Marke and obserue, whether hee vses thee no worse, then hee vses him∣selfe; for this is a sure and infallible signe, that thy Lord loues thee, when of the same bread that hee eateth; of the same cloathes which hee weareth; of the same table, where hee takes his meales; of the same seat, vvhereon he sitteth; of the same Wine, whereof he drinketh; of the same bed, whereon he lyeth; he makes no difference betweene thee and him, but is as it were all one. What did God inioy? What did God loue? What did God suffer? Troubles.

Now then, when God shall share these with thee, hee shewes that hee * 1.26 loues thee. Thou art his Minion, he feasts thee, and makes much of thee; Be thou so wise as to receiue these things thankefully, and to make profit of them. Nor doe thou thinke, that God refuses to giue thee thine owne hearts desire, thy pleasures, thy contentments, riches, and large possessions, or what else may delight thee, for that he is close fisted, niggardly, or couetous; for if thou art willing to see the worth of these worldly comforts, turne but thine eye aside, and looke vpon those that possesse them in greatest aboun∣dance. But who are these? Euen Moores, Infidels, and Heretiques. But God runnes a contrary course with his friends, with those that are his elected, and best beloued children; the cherishments, and blandishments, that he be∣stowes vpon them, are pouerty, afflictions, and persecutions. O had I but knowne so much heretofore, as I doe now, and that God would haue been pleased to haue inlightened my vnderstanding, that I might haue truely seene, and lookt into my former errours, I might haue benefited my selfe in another kinde of manner, then I did at that time.

I am the willinger to deliuer this vnto you, for that when I made this Dis∣course with my selfe, I did doe it truly, and with all my heart. And albeit I am not worthy to merit thereby any reward, (being so great a sinner as I am) yet notwithstanding, this little crumme, this poore drop, this small sparke, had its reward at that very instant, that slender repentance of mine, that my re∣solution (though weake) to doe good, and that good beginning which I had put my selfe into, was not without its paiment.

As soone as I had re-gained my moneys, new persecutions, and new trou∣bles beganne to grow vpon mee. Would to God that I had beene so consi∣derate, as I ought to haue beene. He stript mee of that contentment, where∣in I now liu'd; and hee beganne to touch mee to the quicke, and to beat

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me with many stripes. That small shade of Iuy, (which like Ionas Gourd, did keepe mee from the scorching of the Sunne) was lost, and quite taken from mee; it was dry'de vp, and withered, there was a worme bred in the root of it, which had wasted and consumed it; so that I was forced to lye open to the heates, suffering new calamities, and new troubles, and such as I neuer thought on, without any cause giuen by mee, or any the least signe of offence, hauing no way deserued such hard measure. But stay thy Pen, and ingeniously confesse, that such miseries and afflictions as these, are that hidden treasure in the field, so highly commended vnto vs. And since thou hast patiently heard me hitherto, for thine owne pleasure, heare mee now another while for mine; and hearken a little to the remainder of my mis∣fortunes, where-vnto I shall giue an end, in the next ensuing Chapter.

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