The fourth Chapter, To despise all things in the world, and yeeld our selues vp to God, that he may be all in all for our redemption in time of neede.
LOrd grant me thy singular grace, that I may come thither where no creature shall let me ne keepe me from the perfect beholding of thee.
Page 89 For as long as anie transitorie thing keepeth me backe, or hath rule in me, I may not freelie ascend to thee.
O Lord, without thee nothing may long delight or please: for if anie thing should be liking and sauourie, it must be through helpe of thy grace, seasoned with the spice of thy wisedome.
O euerlasting light, far passing all things, send downe the beames of thy brightnesse from aboue, and purifie and lighten the inward parts of my hart.
Quicken my soule, and all the powers thereof, that it may cleaue fast, and be ioined to thee in ioifull glad∣nesse, and ghostlie rauishings.
O when shall that blessed houre come, that thou shalt visit me, and glad me with thy blessed presence; when thou shalt be to me all in all? Uerelie vntill that time come, there can be no perfect ioie in me.
But alas, mine old man, that is, my carnall affecti∣ons liue still in me, and are not crucified nor perfectlie dead.
For yet striueth the flesh against the spirit, and mo∣ueth great battell inwardlie against me, and suffereth not the kingdome of my soule to liue in peace.
But thou good Lord, that hast the Lordship ouer all, and power of the sea, to asswage the rages and surges of the same, arise and helpe me; destroie the power of mine enimies, which alwaies make battell against me: shew foorth the greatnesse of thy goodnesse, and let the power of thy right hand be glorified in me. For there is to me none other helpe nor refuge, but in thee onlie my Lord, my God: to thee be honour and glorie e∣uerlasting.
O Lord grant me, that I may wholie resigne my∣selfe to thee, and in all things to forsake my selfe, and patientlie to beare my crosse, and to followe thee.
O Lord, what is man, that thou vouchsafest to haue Page 90 mind of him, and to visit him?
Thou art alwaie one, alwaie good, alwaie righteous and holie, iustlie and blessedlie disposing all things af∣ter thy wisdome.
But I am a wretch, and of my selfe alwaie readie and prone to euill, and do neuer abide in one state, but manie tunes doo varie and change.
Neuerthelesse, it shall be better with me, when it shall please thee. For thou O Lord onelie art he that maiest helpe me; and thou maiest so confirme and sta∣blish me, that my hart shall not be changed from thee, but be surelie fixed, and finallie rest and be quieted in thee.
I am nothing else of my selfe, but vanitie before thee, an vnconstant creature, and a feeble. And there∣fore, whereof may I rightfullie glorie? Or why should I looke to be magnified?
Who so pleaseth himselfe without thee, displeaseth thee; and he that delighteth in mens praisings, looseth the true praise before thee.
The true praise is to be praised of thee: and the true ioie is to reioice in thee.
Wherefore, thy name O Lord, be praised, and not mine; thy works be magnified, and not mine; and thy goodnesse be alwaies lauded and blessed.
Thou art my glorie, and the ioie of my hart, in thee shall I glorie and reioice, and not in my selfe, nor in a∣nie worldlie honor or dignitie, which to thine eternall glorie compared, is but a shadowe, and a verie vanitie.
O Lord, we liue here in great darknesse, and are soone deceiued with the vanities of this world, and are soone greeued with a little trouble: yet if I could behold my selfe well, I should plainelie see, that what trouble soe∣uer I haue suffered, it hath iustlie come vpon me, be∣cause I haue often sinned, & greeuouslie offended thee.
To me therefore confusion, and despite is due; but Page 91 to thee laud, honour and glorie.
Lord send me helpe in my troubles; for mans helpe is little woorth.
How often haue I beene disappointed, where I thought I should haue found friendship? And how of∣ten haue I found it, where as I least thought?
Wherefore it is a vaine thing to trust in man. For the true trust and helth of man is onlie in thee.
Blessed be thou Lord therefore in all things, that happen vnto vs. For we be weake and vnstable, soone deceiued, and soon changed from one thing to another.
O Lord God, most righteous Iudge, strong and pa∣tient, which knowest the frailtie and malice of man; be thou my whole strength and comfort in all necessities. For mine owne conscience Lord sufficeth not.
Wherefore to thy mercie I doo appeale, seeing no man may be iustified, ne appere righteous in thy sight, if thou examine him after thy iustice.