he entierly cast himselfe into the armes of God, in such sort praying for this lost soule, that God answeared him, that he should doe penance for his sinnes, and should not be damned, but for dying out of the Order he could not be otherwise satisfied, and so it arriued, for he dyed out of the Order, with manie signes of contrition, according to the opinion of some in the habitt.
This that folloueth is of the aforesaid 32. chapter of the second booke, the better to obserue the Order of all that appartaineth to renoun∣tiation of the office of Generall.
The holy Father S. Francis being by a Religious freind of his entrea∣ted to tell him what had moued him to make that renountiation, and to committ it to the chardge of an other, as if they were not his chil∣dren, who had bin such made, nourished and instructed by him, he answeared: know my child that I loue you all more deerly then any man can imagine, and if all would follow my will, I would loue them more, and would not haue left their administration. But I haue bin cō∣strayned therevnto, because there are many Religious that esteeme mo∣re of the aduice of some of their superiours, by whome they are drawne to other matters, by example of the auncient, and which is directly cō∣trary to my rule, and so they make very litle esteeme of mine aduertis∣mētes: but in the end, they wil more euidētly find their errour. The holy Father being on a time as it were oppressed with his infirmities, and hearing some speake of the aforesaid matters, and particulerly of the o∣uer-much indulgence of the superiours, and of the euill examples they gaue their subiectes, he lifted vp his head and cryed out, Ah! ah! couer me, couer me, who are they that withdraw the Religious from mi∣ne Order, and from my way, and my examples? If I once goe to the Generall chapter, I will shew my Brethren what is my desire, and mine intention, that they permitt not themselues to be deluded.
Being also an other time sick, a Religious said vnto him: O Father, it see∣med that att the beginning our Religiō we striued to liue in al austerity and pouerty, we were poore in our habitt, in our diet, in our dwelling, in our moueables, in our bookes, and in all our other corporal necessities, for which we tooke no care: by reasō of this pouerty exteriour, the inte∣riour daily proceeded frō good to better, because we were al of the same feruour, of the same will, with one cōsent cōspiring to the entier obseruā¦ce of our rule, and alwayes to giue good exāple to our neighbour, finally we obserued the gospell the most exactly that we could. But of later ti∣me, it seemeth that the purity of this our first vocatiō, is much deminis∣hed, vpon excuse that it cā no longer be obserued as before, by reason of the great multitude of brethren: yea there are some that beleeue that the people are much more edified by this theire moderne and new