2. I have chosen to leave some parts of this entry out. Using the entry and writing this essay make me nervous. What will my classmates think of me, if they read this? I was a quiet and solitary graduate student. I did not go to many of the social events my classmates organized. I worried that at these gatherings I had to sound smart, the way it seemed one was supposed to sound in a graduate seminar. Also, by the end of each day and week, I was so drained that the only thing I could do was go home and rest. No matter how isolating, I maintained a private life as my haven from the pressures of being a graduate student. This essay ruptures that private world.

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